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2009-09-26T03:49:00.002+08:00

shower

- this entry was supposed to write on 24th of september

I was supposed to meet cal to celebrate his early birthday as he will not be able to book out during his actual birthday. But i cancelled our meeting because i wish to spend more time with her.

She is having an english teaching lesson for those japanese students. She got to choose either thursday or friday. I did told her i will be meeting cal on thursday, probably she forgotten and choose friday and wanted to spend time with me on thursday. I was telling myself, oh gosh, what must i do ?

Initially we were supposed to meet in the morning for breakfast then meeting cal at 5pm at suntec, but she overslept. We met at 12 plus instead, so we only got to spend 4 hours together. She will be busy with her school activities from friday until next friday, and i will be going in to tekong ( if the police still havent contact me ) for my NS. I really want to spend more time with her on that day as i will not be able to meet her for a week, and she might need to go back to school on the 5th of oct to continue her MP. On the other hand, i had already meeting cal and we already planned this meeting a long time ago.

In the end i choose love over friendship and brotherhood. I let cal down. I understand his frustration. I felt bad for the whole day. She kept saying i looked frustrated and asked me if i was thinking of something. Yes i am angry of myself. I still rmb i told cal i will balance love and friendship and yet now i am saying one way and doing another way. I am sorry.

Maybe it is true that u gain some and lose some.

14 more days, tekong...

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Cloudy

i quitted my tcc job on 23rd of sep. I was planning to use this 2 weeks time to exercise and get back my full fitness to prepare for my NS. I will be jogging, swimming and gyming. Hopefully yan feng, my nowadays exercise buddy will have time to join me as i understand he have his project to do.

Also i plan to cycle around singapore. It keeps me fit and also get to know some places in singapore where i havent been to. Anyway now until 7th of oct i have lots of free time ! I woulden't want to rot at home, wasting my time watching tv and browsing internet and slp for the whole day.

My last day of work was a fun one. I had my lunch with a few of my colleagues at tcc. We ordered a few dishes from tcc. Doey sprayed a can of whipped cream on me. While she was busy doing her stuff i stealthfully took a can of whipped cream and sprayed on doey's face, hell yeah ! It was fun and everyone who presented laughed. A few of my colleagues bought a desert for me and placed a candle on top of the cake and sang happy last day for me. I appreciated that. Special thanks to cheng wei, adeline, doey, delvi, regina tay, meng hon, michael and faizal, u guys make my days at tcc enjoyable.

11 more days, tekong...

2009-09-22T00:45:00.002+08:00

shower

it has been a long time since i wrote blog entry, kind of not used to it. Tomorrow will be the last second day working at tcc. Well, there are both good times and bad times during my days at tcc. Things started to get better for the past 2 to 3 weeks, probably because these newly arrive staffs are more easy going when it comes to work, compared to the previous batch. Alas, i am leaving soon.

Work was ok today, but i noticed many ppl, came in various groups, using laptops in our outlet today, probably those were students, trying to use this free time to discuss projects. Time past quite slow today while working, maybe there isnt many customers today, or maybe i dun receive her smses as she was busy recently. I understand she had her own things to attend to.

I went jogging with oscar aka the little imp moments ago. We jogged from my house to chai chee then bedok interchange then to 85 market. There i bought sugar cane and black carrot cake. The carrot cake wasnt bad, but still isnt as good as old airport road carrot cake, one of our regular stalls.

As usual, i felt refresh after jogging. It helps me to keep those troubling issues away for awhile.

15 more days, Tekong...

2009-08-18T00:51:00.002+08:00

Sunny

I am tired of my job. I really hope 23rd of sep will come soon. It did crossed my mind many times for quitting this job earlier. Maybe my sturbboness hold me on. A few days ago, i met yan feng for jogging and also gyming. He told me he once work as a server before, and at a point of time he wish to quit, maybe becos he thought he cant reach his in-charge expectation and could not cope with the stress. However he persisted in the end after being persuaded by his friend. His friend told him if he could not cope with this job then how is he going to survive in this society. Prehaps his experience somehow inspired me abit.

To make you smile is my motto. To see you find your true happiness and letting go the past is my wish. My purpose is not solely trying to win your heart by doing those things but simply because i just wish to see you happy. I hope you can did well for yr school work and improve your AGPA. To see you wearing your graduation gown, beaming with pride will make me proud. JIA YOU, girly ger !

2009-07-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

shower

12:08am

Ever since i received warning from my ASM, my performance had improved. Nothing much though, just greet guests with a more cheerful tone and put up a smile while facing guests.

Speaking of the warning i mentioned above, it kepts me wonder whether i deserve it. Was it because i received negative feedbacks from regular guest or was it because i was just a victim of the office politics ?

I was watching 溏心风暴之家好月圆 moments ago. I really envied the characters in the drama. They have a responsible, understandable and supportive mum...one family having dinner together, indulging those home cooked food their mum prepare. Compared to mine its a far far cry.

2009-06-21T01:34:00.002+08:00

sunny

1:34am

I don't feel good while I heard from what she told me, the games she played with her friends and how her male friend touched her in a club. I would be lying if I said I am fine with it. I just smile when she told me. I mean, who am I ? I am in no right to interfere her matter. I am just a friend of her.

I don't understand why she kept asking me to meet yixuan whenever i mentioned about her to her. Yixuan is just an ordinary friend of mine. I wanted to know her better last time. But not now. We just chat in msn nowadays. My feelings towards yixuan was just a crush. Will she feel happy if i really date yixuan ?

2009-06-11T01:22:00.002+08:00

sunny

1:22am

This year, I celebrated my 21st bday with my best friends, samson and cal, at sushi tei at Tam 1. Well the food was ok. Hope both of them enojoyed the meal. Next 3 of us went to yakun toast for a chat. We chatted about our future plans, our desired degrees we pursuing after our NS, which occupations we are interested..

There is something which bewildered me - how come cal said he cant visualize me as a police officer ? I believe my future lies on me. And it is not up to others to decide. I am not stubborn, but this is my own future that i am talking about. Hopefully I can receive the support from my loved ones. I strongly believe passion is what drives one to success. To cal, i might not be suitable to work as a policeman, for now. Like he said before as i nurture along the way, who knows ?

While writing this blog entry, i must admit i am tired. I detest people who complained about their work to their friends. Since i had choose this job, i must persist until i going for my NS, which is what i decided initially. Well it will be quite dull to do the same task for continuous days. I understand my seniors' frustration, the stress they faced in their work.

Recently heard her told me that her ex bf actually came to school looked for her. He kneel down infront of her, beggin her what she want him to do. He cried, hitting the walls, and nearly fought with anoher friend of her who tried to calm him down. She cried too, after seeing him breaking down.

I was shcoked when i first received her sms that her ex was with her now. It happened on my bday. At that moment i really wanted to rush down to school. But how do i explain to cal and sam ? I felt helpless, didn't know how to help. I was relieved when i heard she left her ex bf and joined with her friends.

My mood can be described by a song sang by simple plan, titled save you. Sometime I wished I could save you, and there is so many things that i want you to know. She asked me why i didn celebrate my 21st bday in a more grand manner. Apart of the financial matter, I don't see any reason, because even though i reached the age of 21st, my life is still as plain as a white paper. I don't feel proud of myself, in any ways.

If i amid my courage and tell her, will I give her sense of security and happiness ? To be true, I don't know. When she shared with me her unhappy past, i just wanted to hug her. But I kept reminding myself my role. Zhao Hong ah Zhao Hong...

2009-05-31T23:21:00.002+08:00

sunny

11:23pm

A person who is not contented for what he or she has will never find happiness. I tried but i still could not communicate with you, someone who always finds excuses to defend herself. I would started to throw my temper whenever you did something that pissed me off. Fate ties us together, something i cannot change. Your future lies on me. You have my words I will take care of your expenses.

Although i did not harbour much hope, but still, I was disappointed. It is like a dream shattered. All the goals i set earlier need to delay. I kept the letter. For i want to use it as a moltivation. By throwing it away means i cannot accpet the truth and avoiding it instead.

The lack of achievements of myself is the obstacle for me not getting close to you. I felt relieved that you are there when i was feeling down, texted such a long sms to encourage me. Pardon me if I was not in the mood just now. I am really sorry.

2009-05-27T23:48:00.004+08:00

sunny

11:48pm

My performance at work on today was probably the best i had throughout my working days. I felt my working pace had increased, compared to last time. I meniioned on my previous post, that a few mere of words will never bring me down. Of course this could only be considered only a small achievement. But still i am happy for myself, yet need to remind myself to stand firmly on ground. Maybe because i enjoyed working with Doey as i find her easy to get along, compared to others. However i made two mistake: One was i forgotten to print the order from a customer. Second i forgot to return credit card to a customer as it slipped through my mind when i did various bills at the same time. Apart of this two mistake everything was fine. I am glad when Doey praised me. It just feels great to slience the critics. I kept telling myself the only obstacle is myself. Not the critics from my colleague. Not the customers. Definately not the tuants from the store manager. I am fortunate to have good colleagues who supported me and pointed my mistakes. Hopefully i can maintain my performance and prove a point to myself.

I enjoyed the time we spent together...really..I might looked tired..but definarely not because of you..

Sometimes I really hope the titles expressed how you feel...maybe you are just sharing them with me because you like them..

每次听到你有心事。。我总是感到很无助。。想帮也帮不了。。

是否我们真的相暧昧那首歌所说-超越了友情，但还不到爱情?

2009-05-20T01:52:00.002+08:00

cloudy

1:53am

Just a few words will never bring me down. I'll show them.

It seemed to me you had move on..I'm really glad.

Heard from you that a bunch of interesting friends is there to make you laugh, I'm sure you had recovered from your previous sickness and preparing for the next chapter of your life.

You became stronger...

May true happiness awaits you in the near future..

2009-05-19T00:33:00.002+08:00

rainy

12:38am

I hope to give the best to the one I love..but right now, I had nothing. It seemed my life is as plain as a white paper. People who are younger than me are enjoying their fascinating life.

People like me are getting eliminating slowly by this realistic society...if I still do not upgrade myself...

Sometimes i felt sorry for you...

I can only be a listener...

He wanted..but he know he is not good enough to erase the other party..the moments...the good old days...

Just maybe he thought too much...maybe he fall in love easily...he is just a simple guy after all...

Oscar Oscar...hopefully you can live till the day when I can bring u to play with other dogs at any dog's cafe...when I can fetch you to ecp for a jog...when i can buy good food for you...you are one of the friends i love...you are not just a dog to me...You are my friend..

2009-05-17T00:32:00.002+08:00

drizzel

12:33am

Today I met Cal at tiong bahru for our breakfast. We had the mixed vege rice, which is one of Cal's favourite stall vendor. It was located within walking distance from Tiong bahru's MRT station. The braised pork was awesome. Also the crispy pork chop. They had other nice food but cal only ordered a few so i just follow what he ordered.

After finish eating our mixed vege rice, Cal wanted to try another one of his favourite stall vendor, which sells duck noodle. I was quite full so i didn ordered. Cal said its been a long time since he ate the duck noodle.

Next, we went to coffee bean to slack, since my aunt will only be back at 3. We chatted regarding relationship. We sat down about 1 hour plus then we decided to take a stroll around tiong bahru plaza. Lastly we recap some childhood memories by playing street fighter at the acade. LOL ! Soon Aunt Mary called and i parted with cal and proceeded to Aunt Mary's house.

I was glad to see grandfather and Aunt Mary. It's been a long time since i visited them. I told Aunt Mary regarding my application of police post. She supported me but when i mentioned about CID she strongly objected. She said i will mixed with bad company and it is a dangerous career. How i wish i could persuade her...But right now i am still waiting for the comfirmation letter..hopefully after i got listed i will start to plan from there...on wad part time law degree i will be pursuing and improve my english. Looks like i need to do some researches on CID.

Grandfather cooked dinner for me...i missed his dishes...seriously i prefer his than the mixed vege rice at tiong bahru. Biased ? I admitted I am. Simply because i tasted care and love in grandfather's dishes.

Around 7 I bid farewell to Aunt Mary and grandfather then went to meet Alwyn at bedok interchange. Both of us went for a supper at the wanton mee i regularly visited. I had never see Alwyn since we reached Singapore from Cambodia. I forgtten that he never eats chili ! So the vendor changed it to ketchup. We stayed about 10 then left. Its great to see Alwyn again.

I find it scary..when one's mood is depended on the other's behavior, attitude or actions towards him or her and also their past. It is true that what past is passed. But seeing the moments the other parties once had, one will kept think to himself or herself - Will he or she be living under someone's shadow ? By the time things became complicated, distance will increased and feelings will decended.

Happiness is making or seeing the less fortunate ones, smile. by giving something to them when you still need it, by sacraficing for their's sake.

Happiness is doing acts of charity.

Happiness is when you had led a righteous life.

I believe i found it when i participated in both ocp trips in Cambodia...

2009-05-15T00:41:00.002+08:00

cloudy

12:41am

Today I met Mei Xuan for dinner after work. I told her about the yong tau fu near my secondary school, so was asking her if she would like to try. Also she seemed feeling down the day before. Since she did not any plans after school, I was thinking maybe hanging out chatting with her might make her feel better too.

We met at Tampines Interchange, then took bus number 10. I was afraid the stall will close. Fortunately it was still open.

After finishing our food, we had no other plans. So we just take a walk aimlessly. We chatted along the journey. In the end we decided to walk to parkway.

We went to Giant supermarket as Mei Xuan wanted to buy something. Lastly we went to the pet shop, which is opposite parkway parade to look at puppies. I like the haskey very much. I wish i could own one in the future. Those puppies are very cute. Mei Xuan was delighted. Hopefully she will feel better the next day.

We decided to go home as the time was late, and Mei Xuan had a curfew before half past ten. As she was walking home, I decided to accompany her home, as the time was late and i do not think it is safe for a girl to walk home.

During the journey to her home, we came across a drain. If we had to walk back it will be quite troublesome. So we had no choice but to jump over it. I crossed first, but i noticed she was quite afraid to cross, so i stretched my hand over to assist her crossing the drain. I apologized to her as i really did not mean any harm. Fortunately she accpected. >_<

After sending her home, we parted and i took bus 24 home.

TIme flew past without being noticed. Since pre-ocp preparation in school till now, it had already been three months. I'm really glad to know you. Really..i wish we could stay in contact no matter what happens in the future.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow's football training. It has been a while since i played..

2009-05-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

raining

12:58am

nowadays, I had been working almost everyday. Tired i might be, but at least i felt better that i make use of my free time to earn some pocket money.

When things happen, their outcomes have its pros and cons. Take the starting of my working life as an example. I earned money, and met a few new people. I was given a chance to gain more self-confident and express myself better by communicating with customers. At the same time, the time i spent with friends were reduced. Fortunately i managed to meet Cal for a few times, while other of my friends such as Bin Rui, Eddie, Alwyn, Jason, Samson and Wen Hao are seldom met. Those friends i mentioned might be busying with their own works and stuffs too. As time goes by, we will be focusing on our respective jobs. Our friendship might not be as good as in the past.

While writing this entry, I was thinking of chatting with my friends whom i mentioned above, but all of them were offline.

I believe each of every one of us has our own path. Hopefully, sometime later, our respective paths will get crossed and we can find a day to chill, exchanging our recent updates. I'll be looking forward to this day.

Currently, I am eagerly waiting for the reply letter from the SPF. Today a guy from SPF called me, but he only asked when is my enlistment date. My mood was like high up on the sky at one moment, then fall right down in the next min. Funny isnt ?

I strongly believe everyone deserve a second chance. And I believe when that day comes, that will be the turning point of my life.

* Live my life with no regrets.

2009-05-09T01:19:00.002+08:00

sunny

1:19am

today is my fifth day working at tcc cr...as usual the crowd was large during lunchtime...all of us were busy...well as usual the crowd will start to disperse ard 2 plus...

things were going quite smoothly on work...well unfortunately not that smoothly..probably because a colleague seemed to have a problem with me..i just find she had attitude problem...if she think i'm the type of person that let ppl ride on easily i am afraid she got to think twice...the turning point was on wednesday..our cafe was having a function..so we need to wipe the bar...becoz on that evening a lot of guests will be coming...i did my part and fulfil my task..its not as if i am slacking or doing nth...when one of the senior staff ask her to wipe the top of the bar she look at me and ask me to wipe instead..i admitted i was pissed at that moment..well i told myself..fine i will do it...since i am paid...maybe she noticed my face was kinda black..so while i was finding the cleaning equipment she told me she will do it instead...i mean...what makes her think she had the right to order me around ? shes 21 like me...and moreover shes just a part timer, a student like me...just becos she worked there for 2 years she think she has the right to oommand me ? apart of that incident...i just think she seriously has attitude problem..her expression..she is just being very impatient..i admitted the fact that i am a slow learner..but i am willing to learn ! i just think her doing are unnecessary..it just make things complicated..i mean colleauges shld understand and compromise one another..

its been a long time since i exercise..hmm but transport fare is going to cost me dearly...coz i want to go back my sch's gym...then need to take 2 bus rides..

transport fare is killing me ! i really missed the bus concession days =(

2009-05-05T02:00:00.002+08:00

cloudy

2:00am

today was my 2nd day working at tcc cr..it wasnt a gd day as i didn do much..becoz not much customers...i think i only managed to serve 4 tables..throughout 5 hrs...ard 10 plus i went to wash the toilet and compared to the previous time the toilets were much cleaner so didn take me a long time...

fortunately today a senior whomi forgot his name brief me the menu list..enhanced my product knowledge..so today's work was a valuable lesson for me..

i had to settle my own dinner as father didn buy for me -_-" so i thought of buying something ard hrs downstairs but i realised the time is going to 12am..so i changed my mind and ate mac at interchange instead..

becoz of work didn feed and bring oscar for a walk...hope he dun blame me..

had diarrhea for the whole day..went to the washroom for 4 times during work...cursed !!

i am afraid wad i afaird most will come true...becoz i know who i am..and it jus happened too fast...21 years had passed ( almost ) and i am already used to it..i used to envy when i saw it and desperately needed..bnt that was in the past...i mean who hasn't had a past ? i need to understand my role and know where is limit...my actions and the words i said...

i like to walk during the night..while listening to music...just now i was walking from inter to home..i felt comfortable...it helps me to relex and stop thinking those things that bothers me even though for that few minutes...especially while i listen to songs which describe how exactly i felt now..

2009-05-01T04:09:00.002+08:00

cloudy

4:10am

today is my first day working at tcc circular road...initially i thought i would be later because i spent 30 mins finding the outlet !!! in the end it is just beside mac..

fortunately i reached abt 20 mins earlier...i changed into my ironed uniform ( thanks to my mum ) upstairs and went down for briefing...things were going quite smoothly..as i spent 3 days at raffles exchange's outlet, i roughly know wad to do..the only thing i not sure is the location of various items..like the cutleries and plates..where do i get this sort of things...

the whole day was still not very busy...but time seemed to past very fast !!! its like i just msg to my friend then when i look at my watch again its already 12 !!!

oh forgot to mention...today went to meet meixuan shi hui siti hafiq for lunch in sch..as i meeting cal for collecting our graduation gown..i was surprise to see zhen ying samantha alwi as i didn expect them to come..initially i was late..so i ask them to eat first..i was planning to have my lunch alone maybe somewhere ard sch waiting for cal...just then yan feng smsed me so i met him for lunch...when we reach breadboard the rest are still there...so we joined them..until 2 plus where yan feng need to see his mp supervisor...shortly after we all left as i meeting cal...

the renting of graduation is 20 plus...expensive isnt ?

i'm tired..now i need a cup of milo and listening to my favourite songs and have a good slp...this week i dun have any work until next monday...but was wondering what can i do for the past 3 days..

2009-04-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

cloudy

11:50pm

today was the third day of work..and also the last day working at tcc raffles xchange...tml i will be working at tcc circular road..aka tcc cr..

my seniors pointed that i need to speed up and take the initiative to do things..they also said i lack the sense of urgency...i am glad that they pointed out my mistake and hopefully i can improve...

ginger and bin went down to visit me...they ordered oreo milkshake..but they leave before i off..

sometimes i wanted to help..but i just dunno how to...an outsider like me should know my limit and..i dun have the right to interfere..

2009-04-27T22:37:00.002+08:00

sunny

10:37pm

today is my first day working at tcc...reported at tcc office, which i went for my interview, at ten in the morning..from there i was briefed by a guy who handed me my uniforms, nametag, badge, aprons and some papers which contains the info of tcc...

lastly a lady briefed me abt the pay scheme and my working outlet..initially i thought was the one located at the city link...but it turned out to be the one at raffles xchange...after changing then i realised..lol

i reached raffles outlet abt 12pm...i was nervous initially...fortunately i worked as a part time server at a pub before...so i roughly know what am i supposed to do to..." make myself busy " lol...i need time to memorise the menu list and hopefully i can adapt to the working lifestyle asap...

heard from the store manager at raffles xchange that i will be stationed at raffles xchange for 3 days...after that i will be station at the outlet located at circuit road...

after i reached home i was tired...phew..maybe i had not been working for a long time...i nearly forgot to bring oscar for a walk...

my cough is getting worse...to the extent i can feel i am training my abs !! lol

2009-04-26T02:34:00.002+08:00

sunny

2:35am

this morning i received a call from tcc. on the phone was a lady named eunice. she told me i was hired by tcc. i was fascinated to receive their call ! she told me to report at 10:30am on this coming monday, at the office where i went for my interview. after almost 2 mths of job hunting, finally i secured a job. the fact that i found this job without pulling any strings or intro from friends made me proud. hopefully i can settle down asap.

its great to work...i can finally earn my own money without relying on my dear father, who had been supporting me for 21 years. once i receive my first mth pay i can ask my father to stop giving me pocket $. the pay for tcc is $6.30 per hour..if i am able to work 6 days a week 8 hrs per day i will earn quite an amount ! that will be great ! i also could fork out a fraction of my pay to pay our ultilities bills..not much but at least i can help lessen my father's burden a bit...

ytd i met yixuan at tam 1...this is our third time meeting...i saw wei jie at uni glo..he is working there..but hes too busy to chat with me..i understand so we leave shortly after..

we went to tam 1 carls jr for an early dinner...the burger was awesome...i passed the bracelt i got from cambodia to yixuan..the wrapping was awful lol..as i wrapped at the very last min...fortunately yixuan dun mind and from wad i see she likes the braclet very much...

we watched 17 again...initially i thought it will be a boring movie suitable for young gers...watching the cute actor...but i was wrong..its quite a meaningful movie...why ? becoz i felt it is trying to tell us dun ever regret the choices we made in our life and never neglect yr loved ones..instead of kept dwelling abt the past one need to look forward...

after watching the movie we went to buy bubble tea and sat down at a park beside tam mall...we had a great chat..and we chatted abt clubbing stuff..she told me she was with her friends all the time and never danced with strangers...and i think its safer to do that..before we parted yixuan asked me wads my impression for those who went to clubbing..hmm well i dun discriminate those who went but if it will to be my gf it will never be those clubbers who went frequently..becoz i cant accept the fact she got touched by strangers while i do nth...even if she dun wish to dance with strangers but who knows when one is drunk ? yixuan also asked me wads my impression for her ? i said good..thats all...i wonder if i will say the same thing a mth ago...was it because i dun wan her to get the wrong idea ? as time goes by i realised i am not rdy to start any relationship as i need to find a job first..as love is not the most impt thing for a guy but career..a stable job and income...well thats my opinion it doesnt mean i am correct..was it because my feelings to her changed ? e.g when i saw her receive my gift i felt normal..ya..after we parted we didn msg each other...

hope to visit aunt and grandfather tml...its been a long time since i saw aunt and grandfather i missed them..a few days ago aunt called me and asked me when i visiting her..so i hope to see them soon =)

2009-04-23T01:00:00.002+08:00

windy

1:00am

i will never walk alone..though i seemed to be for now...it might sounds stupid...deceiving myself...but this phrase ' tml will be a better day ' has became my life motto...

suddenly theres a gust of wind blew...its very big...and it was so suddenly...

i find it is difficult for me to trust someone completely...i always feel when i gave my trust to that person somehow he or she will did something that will disappointed me greatly...perharps i grew up in a family where no one trust one another..perharps i'm the one who is at fault...

i just found out ever since i returned from cambodia my fitness had decreased...guess i nd to do gym again...

2009-04-22T00:48:00.002+08:00

windy

12:48am

today i met up with ginger and bin for interviewing a packer job..ytd i saw this job ads on zao bao..so i decided to call...the guy on the phone seemed friendly...so i decided to ask ginger and bin along...

the 3 of us were punctual...when i called the guy, whos name is william, he was at the carpark near eunos mrt station..things started to get fishy when he asked us to lie abt our particulars...later then we realised william is not the interviewer..he is an agent..so when we got employed he will earn commission..he told us if we lie the chances of us being employed will be higher...do he think we are that naive ? he just want to earn his commission !!! i had to lie that i already completed my ns and only managed to study till o level...to think getting a diploma cert seemed a shameful thing...ginger even need to lie he lives in bedok coz the company only want to hire those living in bedok area !! he told us names of certain army camps so when the interviewer asked us which camp we were stationed we can tell him lol

that chap william fetch us to the factory but dropped us halfway and asked us to take another van behind -_-" so the other van drove us to the factory...

after the interview we went to boon lay but when we reach there the company already hired ppl...so its kinda wasted trip...next we went to jurong coz they also hiring packers...it is from a job agency...recruit express...but compared to the previous agent we dun have to lie abt our particulars...in the end the packers job is at TUAS !! but the agent who attended us said she will give us a call if theres a job offer...hope so (:

just when we leaving recruit express william called and said we can start work on thursday...he want us to meet him at sheng xiong at 7:15am...i still ponder if i shld work coz i dun the way i lie to get a job...i just feel i let my conscience down...and it is a desipicable way to get a job...i am worried for ginger coz he had to travel from queenstown...and the pay is low...

tml i decided to look for jobs at cafe...i dun mind working in F&B...at first i was worried because i have bad exp working as a waiter...but i believe i can do it...i must learn...to seriously...believe in myself..perharps thats the main reason why i always cant seemed to play well in football...although cal kin and sing hoe taught me a lot...come on zhaohong !!!

p.s suddenly remind of one song of its lyrics...也许是因为我不够温柔，不能分旦你的悠愁。。

2009-04-17T00:18:00.002+08:00

cloudy

12:18am

bought straits time and found a few jobs that interest me...plan to call them tml..theres one which hired cook without exp...sounds interesting...theres one restaruant hiring barista...logistic without exp...hopefully can got one...

recently something bad happened to family...father and mother had a serious argument...i felt helpless and useless everytime they quarrel...i dunno how to help them...

2009-04-16T00:33:00.002+08:00

cloudy

12:33am

today went to sch for ocp meeting...all we did is submit the boarding pass and receive the maleria pills...watched a video did by fellow ocp teamates noel...still we havent receive ocp certs...

went for a meal together with various ocp team mates...present were jiang nan yong feng bin rui alwyn hong wei jun jie yan feng ming feng rebecca toh siti sarah mei xuan shi hui kian hao syarif hao jie...we went to tm swensen...though we wanted to have a meal at tampines one...i spent 18 dollars total...plus transport fare i spend rough 2o plus...i had to cut down my expenses...

next a few of us went for bowling at shi hui's condo...its quite boring and i almost fall alsp...as the machine used for record the scores are faulty...so it seemed pointless to play...

i am tired of seperation...as time goes by...i started to get immune to the sorrow of seperation...its simple...just say bye and turn away...walk off...this might sound unfriendly...but i feel much better...especially when u bid farewell to someone whom u think might not see again and might think of everyday...

2009-04-15T00:44:00.002+08:00

sunny

12:45am

today, i went to spca with mei xuan, a friend i know from ocp 2009. This is only my 2nd time visiting spca...the first time i rmb is with wen hao...during sec sch days...but nv actually went to see the dogs...so this is my first time actually visiting the dogs at spca...

i was chatting with mei xuan ytd when she told me she wanted to visit the dogs at spca before sch starts...i was thinking since i have nth to do the next day, moreover i had never actually see the doggies at spca and previously i agreed to go spca with mei xuan, i decided to tag along...

we meet for lunch at bedok inter before proceed to spca...it was actually quite near to mei xuan hrs...we played with the dogs although the gates kept us and the doggies apart..there were a few nice and cute dogs...i like one english cocker spanish..but i forgotten its name...

we stayed ard 1 and a half hr before leaving...mei xuan was going to meet xue qi to do a report in sch...as the time is still early i suggest to bring my oscar down to let her play with him...mei xuan happily agreed..initially oscar was frighten..as usual...but slowly he started to accept mei xuan...

after mei xuan done her report we meet for dinner at mac at sch opposite before bidding farewell at the bus stop...

i am glad to know mei xuan as a friend through this ocp trip...she is nice to chat with...and i hope our friendship will continue...

2009-04-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

drizzel

8:38pm

today is the 3rd day i came back from cambodia for ocp 2009. Compared to last year's trip, this year trip is more enjoyable and unforgettable...enjoyable because i had to chance to interact with the kids more compared to last year...becoz i was working at their training center last year while this year i was working at hope village...so i had more opportunities to see the kids..say hello to them..during cultural night i enjoyed more than last year..playing with vimol..after work i will play with sophea....and also this time mr andy kwek gave us more freedom so we can go anywhere we like during our staying at phnom phmn...unforgettable becoz i went to places where i nv went last year...like the palace at the capital...beautiful structure...

however the teams this year were not as harmony as last year's team...maybe becoz this year the number is larger...and maybe its more difficult for a larger number of ppl to remain harmony...internal politics circled within the team...i dun wish to point fingers at anyone but i personally think its the leader's responsibility to unite the team...instead of helping her friends when conflict happens...thats why i dun like cui wen as a leader...she is a gd person...a gd friend..when someone is not feeling well she will show her concern..but when it comes to leadership and working as a team i think she still has much to learn...

now i'm back...spore...a fast paced city..unlike the simple life the villagers live in cambodia...hopefully i can find a job asap...i hope to work under a sports wear brand...simply becoz i like sports...and i will enjoy promoting what i like to the customer...i am tired to sell things i myself dun lie...i dun have excellant promoting skills...so thats the reason i hope to find a job selling things i like...everlast converse nike adidas these brands hopefully can enter any one of them...

hopefully i can meet yixuan soon..now shes working at fcuk...dunno when she have the time..i got a braclet with her name sewed on it...hope she will like it...

2009-03-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

11:30 pm

cloudy

on the afternoon of 21st march 09, i met cal for lunch...surprisingly both of us reached earlier than the time we supposed to meet...due to my lack of time management i reached 20 mins earlier and i thought i might as well take the train to a few more staions beofre alighting at city hall, then cal sms that he reached...

we had our lunch at suntec...then we proceed to the career fair...nth much to browse...cal was interested to learn abt teriary courses...i went to ask some info at the singapore police force booth regarding CID...

next, we proceeded to starbuck located in miliena walk for a drink...there we exchanged ideas of football and the future of our team...similar as cal i hope our team can continue even if all of us reached our 30's...by then i'm sure everyone will be busy with their work...but hopefully we can find time...

lastly, we went to the adidas store at rc as i wanted to buy a t-shirt...cal helped me got staff discount...30%..

after bidding farewell with cal, i headed to pasir ris interchange and met juliana and sam for an qi's bday celebration at downtown east chalet..when we reached no one was there ! moments later an qi reached, carrying her cake...her bf was with her...as i was too hungry 3 of us went for a small dinner..an qi was sry that the food hasnt ready...when 3 of us returned an qi's family and her friends were there...the food has arrived...moments later eugene, jun hong and mei yan reached...its been a long time since i saw jun hong...both of us had a good chat...next ning han and her friend, whos also an qi's friend, arrived...i shared presents with an qi's sec sch friends, whos also my pri sch mate, yu hui..she bought a bag for an qi..its a nice pink bag...

we had bbq and the cake cutting sessions...we left ard 11 plus...its great to see so many sec sch mates that night...hopefully there will be another session for us to chill again...while we left downtown, we saw hanidah !!! she was very happy to see us...she gave us her number and ask us to call her next time we meet up...

on 20th march, i met yixuan for dinner catch up at cathay..we had aston for dinner...the food was fine...

next i accompany xuan to rc topshop as she wanted to buy a top...its blue in colour...previously i joked that i hate blue because of chelsea and everton lol !

lastly we went to the starbuck opposite one fullerton...the ambient was great...especially when the spore river was just infront of us...we chatted quite a while and i enjoyed chatting with yixuan very much...a pity my hp's battery was flat...i could have took some pictures with yixuan...before we left yixuan folded a paper plane and gave it to me...i made a wish and threw down the spore river...i wished i can meet yixuan again at this starbuck in the future...

as we reached the mrt station and bid farewell i asked yixuan if she wanted me to send her home as its not safe for a ger to go home in such late hour...she told me her hrs downstairs was dark...but she said its ok...

hope xuan will get employed by fcuk...gd luck xuan !

p.s i would like to apologize to cal for not telling him we went for ann qi's bday...i was afraid he will felt being left out and felt dejected...initially i thought ann qi only asked me to call those whom she invited...to my surprise ppl like mei yan and peiling came only becoz jun hong and juliana called them respectively...in that case i could have asked cal..even jun jie...i understand an qi's situation...she might be too busy to call all of us one by one...so she expected us to call the others down...

2009-03-02T22:59:00.003+08:00

heavy rain

as usual its been raining during this few days...

today met ginger and alwyn for lunch in sch before going to ocp first meeting...then to my surprise i saw bing rui ! i didn expected him to join us for lunch too coz i thought hes not going to the ocp meeting, as he didn want to join...later on ck came together with alwyn...we had our lunch at the first eng canteen then proceed to the classroom at blk 18 lvl 6

we were the first batch to arrive...mr andy was happy to see us...theres also another teacher in charge ginger said he is one of his module teacher...abt 30 mins later almost all of the participant arrived...the majority is from the sme club...we felt being isolated...fortunately i have bin rui ginger alwyn yong feng ck there...theres another grp of guys from fdm...those guys, like us, were quiet, a far cry to the batch of sme club members...they were laughing extremly loud and at the end of the day...most of the important vocations were occupied by them...i was thinking of volunteer as the leader of the grp this time, but come to think of it i shld give the juniors a chance...so i dropped the idea...both the leader and assistant leader are gers..i knew the ger who is the leader...shes one of the helper in our nite cycling grp during this jan...i dunno her well but i rmb theres once she demo the chicky dance infront of us and much to our surprise, she faced her ass infront of our face and shook it !!!! and we were sitting on the floor she was standing... -_-" hopefully shes able to lead the team together with another assistant leader...i am not a sexist so i have no problem with both of them...time will tell whether they are up to it...

this time our task is to build road...the actual location mr andy kwek didn stated clearly or maybe i didn hear it ?? nvm anyway mr andy kwek told us to do some research on ways to constructing pathways...he said the ang mohs always DIY their own pathway...

so during my free time instead of rotting at home wasting an hour playing one dota match i will go gym and jog to train for my AR and OCP...at home i will be learning dreamweaver and doing research on constructing pathways...

2009-02-28T20:48:00.003+08:00

rainy

its been raining for the whole day...been slacking for the whole day... hate raining days..its like adding salt to the wound..adding woes to my boredom...

got a stiff neck the moment i woke up...god knows how i slept ytd nite...i had been thinking of making a trip to my nearby cc...asking if theres any course i can take up and learn something to kill my time while waiting for my cambodia ocp trip...becoz of my painful stiff neck i dropped the idea...

i was watching tv this afternoon when suddenly a message appeared no signal found...i cant even watch local channels...starhub said they will check...

god...today is really an unlucky day..

OUCH !!! MY NECK !!!

2009-02-26T16:01:00.002+08:00

rainy

i felt dejected...i was aiming an A for my automvs...I thought i was going to have my first ever A for my poly education...this morning my dream was broken...i can pass...thats for sure...but i coulden get a B now...let alone an A...why ? i studied so hard...yet at the last min i coulden concentrate...

2009-02-20T00:29:00.002+08:00

windy

these day i have been spending the whole day revising at sch librabry lvl 8...that place had became a second home of mine !

apart of revising i also went to gym...i was thinking since i graduating soon might as well make full use of the sch facilities !! ahaha

my papers will be on the 24th and 26th...liverpool vs real is on the 25th !! and my second paper is in the morning...oh dear

today i went for an interview for the laos ocp, with one of the teacher in charge...i forgotten her surname...i am still waiting for mr andy kwek reply whether me bin and yf are able to revisit hope villiage again...i really hope to be there again and fulfil my role as a volunteer by assisting the children and the villiagers...reason ? i realise volunteerism is my passion...i am not thinking of using ocp as a stepping stone to uni my agpa is outrageous low...even i went for 10 ocp trips it still doesn allows me to enter any local govt uni !!! i hope mr andy kwek can understand and grant my wish...if i were to choose...i will definately choose cambodia ocp than laos ocp...it seems to me laos ocp are more like a luxury trip than doing overseas volunteer work...students going for laos ocp will be staying in hotel and eating gd foods...while we only stay at a cheap hotel for the last days during my last year ocp...sigh how time flew...its nearly a year since my ocp trip...i really wish to go back hope villiage...i promise this time i will be more passionate towards the kids and will make them happy and laugh...i am a shy person but if the kids are happy i think its worth it...to make an orphan, who lost his/her parents at a young age, smile..i think its a great honour and a blessing

2009-02-16T01:20:00.002+08:00

sunny

Just finished my automvs report ! wad a relief !

throughout the three years in my poly life i had never play a major part in any grp assignment..i had been living like a parasite...aka free-loader...but this automvs report i played a major part who thoguht of the main solution to the existing technology...of cos without the assist of alwyn i myself coulden finish...i proved to myself that i can do it too...

unfortunately jason didn did his best to help...clearly to me he didn seemed interested and incooperative...i was very disappointed...maybe he cant except the fact of being command by someone whos AGPA is lower than him ? throughout the discussion period i tried to explained and share my opinion to him...his repond ? ah...ah..ah... what does ah means ? judging by his body language he is not interested to listen to my explanation...i was very pissed...is this how he show his respect to his friend ? i cant imagine how he befriend his sec sch classmate...

i had been tolerating him since that time he didn inform me he will be late while i supposed to meet him for gym in sch...that shows his self-centered character and it seemed to me he dun treasure me as a friend rather an apprentice...i felt like pulled him over and gave him a fucking punch on his fucking face the next day...but i told myself to calm down...i had learnt my lesson during sec sch for being impulsive...

when i met yixuan 2 weeks ago she told me she was displeased with jason...as he likes to tell ppl wad to do...i myself faced this pastor like treatment before...but not now..not this sem...it teaches me the importance one nd to be mentally strong and confident to prevent being ruled by others...

anyway its only a week left...to conclude not everyone appreciate kindness so i can save it for others...

tml onwards i will be studying in sch library... next tues is ICC and thurs is automvs...

2009-02-09T00:11:00.002+08:00

windy

ytd i met yixuan at bugis for dinner. Since now is still CNY we decided to eat steamboat. The steamboat restraunt we visitng is actually into by ginger. We spent 2 hrs plus there...symphatise those who waited outside...as i ate too slow ! both of us didn really ate a lot...yixuan said a bit pity...

after having our steamboat we went to starbuck for a drink and chatted...i ordered white chocolate mocha and yixuan ordered white chocolate latte...we exchanged our recent updates...yixuan is a fun person..shes nice to get along and nice to chat with...i enjoyed chatting with her...shes a sweet ger...as the nite is still young we walked ard bugis street and sat outside breko cafe to enjoy the breeze...suddenly yixuan had a tummyache...probably is the steamboat !!! i brought her to kfc's washroom...while waiting for her i bought a vanila cone at mac..

whats frustrating is that mum kept calling me...i told her i be home asap yet she still call...oh man ! yixuan then suggest i better go home so mum wun be wry...i felt embarrased...

i enjoyed this outing with yixuan...i didn told her...i msg her if shes feeling better thx god shes fine...i hope i can meet yixuan again next time..really

2009-01-25T02:30:00.002+08:00

sunny

it was a great day but a tiring day too...

today gui eddie bin rui and i went to shop for our cny clothes..initially i only ask gui...while having dinner at 85 market ytd nite eddie said he want to join as he havent bought his cny yet..after hrs of persuading from eddie binrui join us too...

we supposed to meet at bugis at 3...but all of us were late so we ended up meeting each other at 3:30..we shopped at bugis junction until 5 as i need to go to vivocity to collect my liverpool long sleeve away jersy from cal...i felt guilt as i felt i caused the others not having enough time to shop ard bugis...but they are understanding and i am grateful to them...

i managed to reach vivocity on time and got the staff discount from cal...its still expensive though but i like it very much...this is my first ever long sleeve liverpool jersy...eddie joked that it looks like a pyjamas...binrui agreed...hougang gays...bo bian :)

next we shopped ard vivocity...i bought a long sleeve plain white shirt from domanchi and theres a 20% discount...i actually spot this shirt at the outlet at bugis junction...but there dun have the size i want...at vivo they also dun hagve the size i want...but after trying the other size i find it ok so i bought it...nowadays i like simple design...unlike my youth days, where fanciful pictures are my cup of tea...gui bought a cargo short from a brand i dunno how to speel it...its from london...eddie bought a long sleeve shirt at freshbox...

i rmb levis is having a special promotion - get 50 dollars discount when u trade in yr old jeans, any brand will do. so i brought my unwanted old jeans out...jus in case i want to buy a pair of levis jeans...i bought a pair and managed to get a 50 dollars discount...i thought this jeans matched my jersy and a few of my shirts at home...in the same store eddie and bin rui bought a t-shirt each...gui bought a pair of shoes...

lastly gui went to tangs to buy a t-shirt...we finished our shopping at 9 plus...a total of 6 hrs of shopping !! i felt tired...maybe because i dun shop oftenly ? ahaha !! i really admire the shopping sprit the gers have...

we settled our dinner at carls jr...at first we planned to try the famous prawn mee at farrer park ard little india...but we dun have enough time and all of us are tired and hungry...

cny is coming...i sincerly hope the year of ox will be a better year for me my family and my friends...i spent a lot today..i must admit...so theres a need for me to find a job after my examination...my ocp friends asked me to join another ocp at laos...the task is to teach the laotians english and IT skills...i ask myself, do i have the ability to teach them ? wads my purpose of going there ? i seek the answer from my true heart...i dun think i got the ability to teach them...if i go there i could only capture the beautiful scenary using camera...i will feel guilt if i cannot do anything to help the people...i will feel like a tourist instead of a volunteer ! sure i can receive a cert at the end of the day and enhance my portfolio...but its like buying the cert...i hope to get more info before deciding...and also due to my family circumstances i need to work and help to lighten my father's burden...i have to understand the fact that my family is not well fed as my other friend's family and i must kill off the envious and decide my own path...i dunno if i could afford to travel...although the air tickets could be paid using my PSEA account, i still need to save my travelling expenses...i hope i could given the opportunity to contribute more...to the people and the society then i might go...

i hope to secure a full time job which could enhance my professional in the future...i hope it can give my experience which could upgrade my personal knowledge and develop my character...if possible i hope to continue after my NS...if i choose to join the laos OCP i cant work a full time job for the moment...because i need to come back to sch for pre-ocp preparation...i can only start to work after my ocp trip, which is abt mid of april...so wad am i gonna do after my exam which is the end of feb till start of april before leaving from spore ?

i need to consider carefully...every step will decides my future

2009-01-13T00:13:00.003+08:00

windy

today was the released of the o lvl result...my english got D7...its the same grade i got during my first attempt..embarrased isnt ? well i did felt disapointed...but i told myself i still got CEQTECH ICC AUTOMVS projects and exams to take ! i still have my BEST IMPROVEMENT AWARD to aim ! i cant feel dejected !!! i will be dead and finished !!! no...i will never allowed myself to feel that way...

today saw the BIE gang consists of lalita baohui nicholas and eddie...as usual eddie and nicholas buay kam...bao hui said i got longer hair is nicer...wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ( never ending ) we will be watching chi bi this wednesday !

2009-01-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

cloudy

i was supposed to attend one lec this morning as the other lessons were either cancel or teacher busy eps...after recevied alwyn's call i went to tm to meet alwyn jason lam kenneth and junlin...after having our lunch we headed straight to queensway as alwyn wanted to buy a bball shoe becoz his old pairs's sole already dropped out and kenneth wanted to buy a pair of sneakers...

at queensway i saw a pair of converse shoe which is white and grey and the logo is red...i kinda like this shoes as it will fit my future liverpool long sleeve jersy well...i will be considering though..

we reached queensway abt 1:30...after accompnay them shop i went back to sch for my football match...

the match started at 5..as usual i dun feel comfortable with the ball...my composure is still lacking...fortunately i was able to pressurise some opponents and managed to take a few shots...but all off target...i was confident to challenge high ball...jus nd to get more physical next time when there is a match...

sadly i suffered a few knocks on my left leg...one at the tight the other at the shin...hopefully i can recover on time then practice my self-training on nxt monday...

this weekend will be a busy weekends...got ccom cover letter, advertisement cutting and re-do resume... then nd to do some research for ceqtech project...theres another qutomvs research but i will leave it on monday as the above mentioned assignments nd to submit on monday...

this coming wednesday there will be a briefing on next sat nite cycling...maybe a dinner with the rest after the briefing ? lol

2008-12-31T00:01:00.003+08:00

sunny

just received 2 of my term test paper...i must say i did fairly...ceqtech 72/100 , icc 31/50...as for another paper automvs got to wait till friday...i thought i could do better for icc...as the marks deducted were not questions which i skip for not knowing how to solve but carelessness...and once again carelessness haunt my life...i could have get 38 or even 40 ! as for ceqtech i am quite contented as i predicted i will get btw 70 ~ 75...hopefully my automvs can get a better grade so can highen the chance for me to get the best improvement award.

during the eve of xmas i met cal and we had a buffet lunch at sake and turned out ala cart !! so we nd to pay every plates we ate each person abt 30 plus !!! cal said he will never go to sake again !! after that we went to the cathay to play ps3 pro evoloution soccer...i was badly defeated by him !! we finished playing abt 5 plus then cal went to meet his friend...i met ah gui and we went for dinner at crystal jade then spend our time slacking till 12 am...gui brought me to some places i nv visited before like the highest floor of the esplanade and i must say the view is beautiful...i hope i can brn my loved one to there and admire the scenary together...we also went to sit infront of sir stamford raffles and drink our starbuck hot choco and chat...i am fortunate to know gui as a friend and a privilege as i can learnt from him as he share his exp with me...though we only know for abt 8 mths ??? hes one of my ocp teamates...

this year xmas i sent almost all of my hp contacts a xmas greeting msg...some reply...some didn...and for those who reply some ask me who am i ? its clear that they already deleted my contact...those were my ex sec classmates...i am not surprise at all as firstly i had not contact with them for a long long time....3 years maybe ? secondly the old beh zhaohong was a hated figure in chai chee sec...i used to be a sensitive and bad tempered guy who wanted to show off yet know nth....a saying empty vessel makes the most noise is best to describe the old me...fights occured during my aslt year in sec and at that moment i was wondering what the fuck happen to me ? why am i seemed to against the world and push all the blame to those who offened me...now come to think of it i realised the fault lies on me...a real man is not afraid to admit his mistake thats why i am not afraid to tell others the old me...

i didn tell them who am i..coz i dun believe its important...whats important is that i had shared my festival joy with them...they might not know it but the god in my heart will...

this photo was taken on 19/12/08...this day 14 children from the hope village in cambodia came to tp for a visit...hope village is the place i lived during my ocp in cambodia...i was elated to see those kids again ! i dunno many of them as i did not interact with them much during my 8 days in hope village...which i regretted...even then i still enjoy spending time with them and the founder of the hope village mr robort kee...i read one of the book he wrote...i was greatly touched by his thoughts and ambitious.....his words inspired me in someway...he is willing to scarfice his personal interests to help the orphans...i hope he can fulfil his goal of builiding 10 orphanges by 2015 so more orphans can be saved and taken care of...

after parting with the children we went to bugis for a steamboat dinner followed by a movie...during our steamboat dinner they commented that i am very quiet while eating as usually i am quite funny and chatty...maybe i dun have the habit to talk while eating lol !

hope i can save up enough $ so can go backpack tour with ginger to hope village again !!! really wish to see those kids again...hopefully i can start a job after my examination

2008-12-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

This photo was taken after attending lalita's ballet dance performance at victoria theater on 27th. This is my first time attending such event. At first i was worried i might get bored and fall aslp..but it turned out to be ginger instead LOL ! Overall the performance is nice..especially the small kids with different ages of group...credits to lalita...she danced well...i nd to depend on nicholas to point out where is she coz my eyesight is bad LOL !

the bouquet of sunflower was bought by us as a token of our appreciation to lalita as well as congratuating her for successfully ending her performance. I was the one suggesting and i thought sunflower symbolises friendship and hope..hope she will like it.

this is the epl table on 7th dec before man utd ys sunderland. i was so glad that we managed to defeat blackburn...before that match liverpool had 2 goaless draw again weak opponents fulham and west ham respectively...frankly speaking we were awlful in the first half..and i was fucking frustrated...when alonso scored the first goal finally i felt relieved...by expressing in a vulgarity way FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK NBCB !!!! chelsea won the other match so if liverpool draw we will drop to 2nd again.

the title race is ficere..nobody knows who will emerge victory till the end...once again this shows the fighting spirt of the reds...and i tgave me hope for studying my upcoming termtest...the first half was best suited to summarise my previous sem performance...disgraced...but things turned well for us and hopefully...i can do well...

my biggest dream is not to earn 1 million by how many years old...drive wad ferrari...open a shop be a boss....its simple..to get nominated for the best improving award this sem...i dunno whether our MP/SIP will get included for our gpa...coz i dun think i did a gd job for my mp/sip...i choosed the wrong project..and an uncaring supervisor...right now i just nd to focus my term test, projects for my modules and finally final year exam...

on 5th dec, is our usual sports day. we went to ginger hrs and stay overnite. we played a fun game called police and murderer. each of us will receive a card and joker means that person is the murderer and ace is the police...the rest are civilians...the murderer had to wink his eyes to the civilians and 'kill' the civilians and the police had to spot the murderer. its fun and exciting as the loser will have to drink my vouka or xo haha...but in the end majority drank mixer...the alst round is the funniest coz i dragged ginger down...i caught the wrong murderer and the correct one is bing rui...we had to drink pure vouka...i nearly repeat history and vomit but i manage to recover...maybe last time got train before lol...

after the game we went to watch tv awhile then suddenly i got the urge to share my matters with the others...yes it was a ger i like but i dun deserve to be with her coz my academic performance, compared to her was a far far cry...its like a toad wanting a swan flesh...the majority of them know who is she...but i cant mentioned here...speaking out feels great but the next day when des, who fell aslp the day before ask me wad i said i was too embarrased to speak out...and des know her too...

the main reason why i determine to work hard this sem is her...its my blessing to befriend ginger yf and bing rui who inspired me to work hard and crack jokes that are infinaty...especially ginger who willing to spend his time revise with me at the sch library after sch...

i dun like to think too far...some said i lack ambitious...but i think otherwise...i just dun want to say say and say...i want action...to prove myself...i wan to achieve things step by step...i want to prove those who look down or think little of me and those who deserted me....

speaking of her i believe she is happy now as she got herself a bf who achieve the same academic status as her or even better than her...i believe she will feel proud and blessing...i strongly believe as long the person u like is happy its enough...i dun feel bad if i saw them together hand by hand...i been lying to myself that i dun have feelings for her but i can lied to myself again and again...whos to blame ? myself...if i did well for my previous sem i will cfm try to woo her...shes the most hardworking ger i came across for my 20 years life in this world...i dun give a fuck if ppl ard me critise her...to me shes my hope...i strongly believe in destiny...nobody knows wad will happen in the future...

things were not looking gd in my family...father is having a hard time earning $ as more and more taxis come out as many ppl who are either lost their jobs due to the bad economic come out to be taxi driver...father even nd to borrow $ from my brother...i wished i can help him but now i am jobless..if i lend him i wun have enough to pay for my future bills...

i wish i can share my father's burden...but he wun...he will never...though he didn teach and guide me much during my childhood at least i was never starve and have a shelther...and he had to tolerate a wretch who only knows how to complain for the past 20 odd years...

but thats wad life is...so i can learn...

2008-11-23T01:12:00.002+08:00

???

oh damn i am late again ! ytd class starts at 8am. Mr foo allows us 30 mins grant but in the ned i reached 8:50am...I didn woke up late..neither is the bus fault...i am the source of all the fault...i am too slow settling myself in the morning...especially eating of breakfast and bathing...its a fucking bad habit...looks like i nd to break it in order to success...every day 24 hrs seemed not enough for me..simply because i am not gd at timing and punctuality...fucking frusrating...theres a saying if someone wants to success he or she must know wads is their weakenss and strength...i know my weakness and i nd to overcome it...

fortunately i managed to catch up the class of wad mr foo taught...the translation and rotation thingy i can understand...at first mr foo said we nd to visualise in order to correct wah i thought i die liao coz i thought i not gd in 3D visualising but heng i can...

at the end of the day things were starting to become enjoyable and wad else ? its my friends and i self declared sports day ! i played basketball with friends and friends' friends...however its not quite enjoyable because of the cold war between me and jason...i am pissed by his behavior...seeing the time 4 pm le then i faster rush to tembuso where my teamates are waiting for me...its been a long time since we have a proper training...i really enjoyed all the training sessions...sometimes i only have shooting then crossing rhen straight away match practice...i am not gd at header so when they cross most of the time i only stand there...those training sessions give me much confident on the ball...during the match practice i scored a goal...after ben passed me the ball syamil went on to pressure me...fortunately i won the ball and cal came and did the same to me...i managed to keep my composure and went pass him...knocking the ball pass...but yong chang came and steal the ball...fortunately he didn keep it well and i regain the possession and without thinking twice i shoot as hard as i can and GOAL ! i dun score many but hopefully i can score as many asi can from now on as i still nd to learn my ball control..

after training i went back to the basket court to look for the IBT gang if they finish their napfa...weijie and qingyang cant make it and failed eventually...the rest make it but bin rui only got bronze...next year 7th of jan i will be taking with jiang nan and will ask those who failed to join us...hopefully i can get a silver...

not long after i came back the sky starts to drizzel so we grab our bags and went to the stadium to look for the IBT gang...next we bath and off we went for our dinner !

this time we went to beach road to eat...jiang nan binrui and i ate claypot rice...its nice while its hot...damn nice...we also ate bak ku teh...speaking of teh another teh come and steal our soup and thats teh yong feng ! the rest ate the famous chicken rice...

after dinner i thought we finally end our day then go home...jiang nan brought us to several places instead...first we went to yio chu kang cementary..we dropped at the submit and its not very dark...luckily we see nth phew ! jus a few mossie bite knn ! then we went to a place i dunno where coz at that time i very sleepy...they say is couple dating place but we go there no ppl...so we decided to go home le...but wait ! we got bedok de woodland de paye lebar de hougang de how ? by the time jn send us home he reach home will damn late de...so he decided to let us stay at his house...we went to 7-11 to purchase some drinks and tibits then we headed to his hrs...

here comes the climax of the day...jiang nan brought his father XO and ask us to drink...WOW! XO ! never even smell in my whole damn lifr...so i open and pour a bit and taste..its nice and fragrant...no wonder so ex...so i kept drink and drinking...i rmb i drank 6 cups...plus earlier i drank the passion fruits wine and rred wine...result ? VOMIT !! 3 times sia...they all say damn smelly lol ps man...qing yang say maybe i nv walk sat there then vomit...wei jie say i am qualified to chiong lol...in the end had to trouble jiang nan to carry me to his room and i immediatley dropped to his bed and sleep...they say they got hit me but i really feel nth at that time le...when i woke up is 8 plus..wah head damn pain...when i sleep until 11 i feel much better le....jiang nan said his head pain...perharps is the hangover...we ate our lunch at queenstown station nearby....then from there we seperate le...when i reach home i bath then slp again until 7 plus...damn tired...

now doing my report...better stop here...though i still got much to write...

2008-10-29T02:10:00.002+08:00

cloudy

time flies..its the 2nd week of sch..i missed some lesson due to my absense for o lvl english last tue...but with the help of my classmate i was able to keep up the pace for wad the lecture went through..

i told myself this is the last sem and this is my last opportunity to excel..i admitted i said the same thing for the previous semester but ended up failure...along my life i came across ppl who motivate me..inspired me...i am grateful to them...i am fortunate to ahve classmates who help me along the way...though i didn appreciate them during sem 1...i really wish and hope this sem will be my turning point...

i am glad that finally liverpool fc looks like a real title contender...although i only started to support liverpool 3 years ago..i aldy feel i am a hardcore kopites...You'll Never Walk Alone...this simple 4 words might look ordinary to others...but for me it strengthens the bond of those who support liverpool fc...it gives me a senes of belonging and a unexplainable warmth...perharps thats why i became a liverool fan....my passion will never be lesser to those who support longer liverpool fc than i...strangely its like falling in love with someone...u cant explain love isnt ?

the comeback liverpool made for the past few games teaches me not to give up...one game at a time...one step at a time...slowly...but do it with effiency...its like me now...slowly...dun panicked...

2008-10-05T22:57:00.002+08:00

sunny

another disappointment...hot tomato soup didn called...they fucking said will reply me even ifs a no..fuck them...but after cheesecake cafe exp i had some mental preparation..so ytd i called another job which i also found in the new paper..its a pub waiter job...i went down to paye lebar...the whole environment...hmmm not very " clean "...however the lady boss decided to hire me...shes fast..quick..no dilly dally...perharps she nd manpower badly...but theres one problem...the working hour..its 10 PM to 3 AM !! though theres transport to go home but i does no exp nitelife before...imagine my father sniffing cigrette stain...hes is gonna fucking kill me !

theres another factor which i nd to seriously consider : schwork. i am wry working at the pub might affect my studies due to lack of slp..i told myself this is my last chance to prove myself and redeem my pride...i cant afford to screw up again like i did in previous semester...

jie gave me a number selling kappa at various department store..i jus called...and the answerer said hes not free..its like a tight slap on my face...fuck him..but nvm i bear with it..i gonna fucking call him tml and see wad tricks he play then...if i got it i can work 2 jobs...afternoon shift for kappa then rush to pub and work till 3 am..reach home maybe ard 4am bath slp then work kappa...thats why i plan to stay back do my self revision from the very first day of this coming semester...

i used to work 2 jobs last time..i still rmb...16 years old after my n lvl...downtown east and airport...i only manage to slp 4 hrs a day...but for the kappa cum pub i can afford to slp more though...still i had the exp of working 2 jobs so shlden be a problem...thats wad exp counts...if i didn done that i wouldnt even think of working 2 jobs now...

tml gonna start my eng revision...had nv did any essay after last meeting with cal..after that will be joining sing ho and co for football...

during these days of gloomy mood caused by rejected of jobs again and again which slowly turned me into a walking corpse...theres one thing that lightens up my mood..giving me hope..nonono not any dream gers i fancy...yea its Liverpool FC...first thats the victory against psv where keane scored his first goal for Liverpool FC and stevie g scored his 100th goal for Liverpool FC...then its the comeback which ended moments ago...3-2 at eastland...first we fuck man utd and now its man city...

the pic above is the third goal we scored...thats kyut first goal in the BPL since last nov...nth proud abt but this goal gave us a vital 3 points and stay on the way with temporary leader chelsea...during HT we were trailing 2 goals down...but in the second half we scored 3 goals and staged a dramatic comeback...ues man city did have a player send off for a ugly tackle on xabi..thats was a straight red...no excuse...hey shut up huges...that gaffer was the manager for man city...he will regret for his reaction after he saw the reply...but we scored the third goal after skrtel was off for his injury...

this will definately gave us a major boast on our confident...and i am looking forward to see agger back in action !

ok back to my job hunting...i still havent told my father that i will be working at a pub...however if i were to look at a positive side...this working exp will develop my character building instead of leading me to astray...i will feel more confident when i talk to someone and can kiss goodbye to the bad old shuttering days...sure working at a pub will befriend ppl who was well not gd ppl i suppose...but i believe which friends are gd and which one are bad...as for gers...i seriously doubt i will find any one i can share my trouble and happiness with...looks yes...character...hell fucking no...

life is a gamble...and i am staking with my future on this two pt job....aunt mary kept telling me now is to focus on my studies and dun work at lowly part time job...find a decent one like in an office after i graduate...fuck she dun understand...whenver i tried to explain to her she will change another topic...this pissed me...yes she paid for my sch fees when my father was hard in cash...i reallly appreciate her and told myself i will repay her someday...but she really dun understand my situation...i nd to pay for my hp bill...starhub cable bill...monthly concession...and also my textbooks which i nd to purchase for this coming semester...if i still cant find a job i will spent all my savings and will have trouble paying the coming bills...if i am born well fed i wouldnt care so much...

today ginger des and yf fly to japan...how i wish to join them...sigh i cant possibly paid the air tickets...my father had to pay for the house expenses...i am not my brother...who dun give a shit to this family..yes i didn pay the house eletriciy bills...i am not the only one watching the starhub cable...my father likes to watch chinese news my mother likes to watch animal documentary...even my brother will watch chinese show sometimes...and i used to work from noon to nite...i treat the cable tv as a way to repay my parents debts...though i cant afford luxury food or activities to repay them..

i wishes ginger des and yf bon voyage...i didn sms them coz i dun wan them to misunderstand that this msg is a reminder for them to buy presents for me...no way...their plane left at 1am...they shld be on their way now...

2008-10-03T02:56:00.002+08:00

unknown

STEVE GERRARD GERRARD !!! HE PASS THE BALL 40 YARDS !!!! HES BIG AND HES FOCKING HARD...STEVE GERRARD GERRARD...

Thats Stevie G's 100th goal for liverpool fc...how honoured am i even though i only managed to watch it live in tv and not the kop....how i envy those dear kopites who sat at the kop end...

eventually we won 3-1...in this game robbie got his first goal for liverpool too...and this is rafa 250th liverpool game in charge...3 goals !! triple happiness !!!

usually i will note down the weather of the day...but i wrote unknown for this time...becos even though i leave my house i didn notice nor feel the weather...being jobless had turned me into a walking corpse...its true...i felt dejected ever since i got banned by og...and its hard to find a new job which suits me...i wanted to find a job in FNB...firstly i believe working as a waiter will helps me to speak more confident and inprove my interacting skills...secondly i want to prove to myself that i can work as a waiter...becoz i had a bad exp working as a waiter while in sec 5...

tml i will be going down ps for a walk in interview for a cafe named hot tomato soup...i knew through the papers...theres was also a number which i called asn asked if theres any vacancies...a lady picked up...she jus told me to go down to ps tml for a interview...wtf they put that bitch numnber then ? there stated either call or walk in interview...doesnt it makes that bitch number redundant ? fuck it !!

oct the 1st is our ocp gathering..those who present are ck,eddie,bing rui,lalita,celeste,jon,des,nich,jia hui ginger and me..marcus was busy attending his jap exchange, syamil was well hari raya, melissa....as usual....isolated away from us...sticking with his/her rubby babes, yong feng was buying food for his sec class chalet, gui cant take his off coz his boss dun allow, andrea, surprisingly, MIA while lastly angela was having tution.

This gathering was originally organised by lalita...watching movie painted skin..but i thought of something more...so i organise a k session before movie...unfortunately..not everyone was fond of singing...ck as expected..he refused to dance during our ocp for the children let alone singing for us...celeste did wanted to join us but i think she dun wan to left ck alone so she did not join too...the same goes to lalita...bing rui and eddie are hougang gays...lol so they didn join too.. WARNING FOR EDDIE ONLY IF U HAPPEN TO READ MY BLOG : THIS IS JUST A FUCKING JOKE !

i enjoyed myself i must admit...its fun hearing the others singing...well shout will be a more suitable word...but i dun think i will organise a k session again unless the other gers cfm coming...as i realised the cost is far too high for others...INCLUDING ME AS I AM JOBLESS NOW !!! with the gers around there will be more i fun i believe...no other intention but indeed activities like k are more fun when opposite sexs paticipate at the same time...

after the k session i heard nich said the k need to hire part timers...so i plan to ask tml after asking the hot tomato soup...working at k was not a bad option too...

after the k session we proceed to the cinema upstairs and watch our movies...the show is a love story...i must admit i am touched by the couple in the story....willing to sacarfice their lives to save each other...though i will never tell the others that i am touched...i may appeared cool outside as many of my friends said..but actually i am a sentimental person...i feel for the others...but theres no use letting ppl know becoz i find it meaningless...perharps thats the reason why i dun have many friends...

this is the picture we taken during our dinner at a fuck up place...the food is ex and the food is sux...i ate one raw kang kong...fuck the cook...

after dinner we bid farewell...lastly bing rui eddie des ginger and i stayed at starbuck abt 30 mins or so for a small chatting session...before that lalita said she was waiting for her brother but when i suggested going to tcc she seemed shy and flustered..lol..i think its was her bf who worked at tcc who she was waiting...but i managed to pursuade the others to sit at starbuck...

i realised i was broke as i paid lalita her ballet performance ticket so i went to withdraw..after i am back she had gone...meeting her bf i supposed...i dunno..somehow...i felt being left out..why ? i forbid myself for thinking any wishful design on lalita becoz i understand who the fuck i am...a gd friend of mine dislikes her...but i just think otherwise...she is a gd person a gd girl and a gd friend...but it seemed we dun have much to talk...i admit its a pity that i dun get to know her well...but i believe theres a bright path waiting for me...someone somewhere along the path...

strangely i jus got a feeling that we will not meet together for a lunch or an outing from nxt sem onwards...after our exam perharps NS comes straightly after that...

as uaual tml WILL be a better day..it certainly will !

2008-09-28T20:47:00.002+08:00

these photos were supposed to upload ytd but something wrong with my hp some delayed till now...

these photos were taken at breko cafe at bugis...ytd yc and i watched the merseyside derby at there...i got to know this place from bing rui...he said he saw a lot of liverpool fans gather at there during liverpool match days...

the atmosphere was great...a pity yc and i sat quite far and the tv was not those big screen lcd or projector type...we sang torres song when he scored...a brace !!! a pity the third was ruled foul at first..

we order 2 bottles of beer and some snacks...total was abt 24 bucks plus...

i was glad that arsenal lost to hull city...which means liverpool were 2nd who shared the same point as chelsea due to GD...arsenal produced brilliant passes...yet they lacked the clinical finishing...some of their strikers actually had many gd chances...credits to the hull city keeper...who make 2 late saves from fabregas...so far so gd for THE REDS...however i still insisted theres still a long way to go...even if we beat chelsea arsenal at home we must watch out for slip up against minor teams ( pardon my frankness ) like stoke city...

yc lent me his gerrard auto-biography...i been wanted to read this book...but just didn have time to buy or ask from cal...this book came in handy...just the time when i am at the low pit of my life...jobless...been working since the age of 16...really cant get used to it...for the past 2 weeks i had been living like a retired elderly...spending time at the coffeeshop reading newspaper...looking for jobs...

speaking of jobs hunting...theres one which i hope i can get select...it is a cafe located at siglap..selling cakes...it was opened by a couple...the wife interviewed me...i was glad she gave me positive comments...she said i was confident and keen to learn...but was too quiet as she did the talking most of the time...she said she was hoping for someone with waiter exp..but i told her although i dun have any ( well theres one actually but was ban jus one day ONE DAY FUCK IT ) ok back to usual...but i am willing to learn....i dunno how she felt i am confident...perharps the way i look at her and my body language...she praised me for being loyalty as the job i worked previously was quite long..[ actually i am just lasy to job hop ( : ]...later she introduce me to her husband...i think both are great person...i feel comfortable while chatting with them...the husband similar as his wife comment abt my quiet personality...i really wanted to tell them it is becoz i tend to listen then speak...i dun wan to act smart and brat is something which will never exist in my dictionary...she said she will give me an answer by this coming wednesday...i hope i really can get choosen...but if not i still think the interview exp benefited me so nxt time i can face the next interview more confident and will speak more...strangely they didn comment abt my long hair and said they like me...well perharps is my look (; nono dun get me wrong i mean perharps i gave them a gd impression...a clean look...

looking forward to this wednesday ocp outing...mus get ready to brn a camera and post it on blog...a pity yf cant make it...hmm i dunno if he is trying to avoid someone...was thinking to ask him des ginger bing rui and ah gui to k de...

just now while chatting with yixuan, accidentaly found out that she had broken up with her bf...didn mean to ask her...although i dun see her that often nowdays but i believe shes a strong ger...i believe she will find her happiness soon...a pity she lives at yishun if not can ask her and jason for lunch for a catch up...

looking forward to wednesday !

2008-09-13T00:17:00.002+08:00

drizzel

shocked...just received my sales rep msg...was being informed i was banned from working at og tml....its jus too sudden...today i am being busy helping to place goods and replenish the offer items and i had never been that busy before as the cursed full timer off again...

come to think of it i think i was banned probably because of my misconduct of attire...today quite a number of goods required for me to settle so i had to scroll up my sleeves to do my stuffs as my limbs will feel being restricted if i pull down my sleeves...and when i finished my stuffs i forgot to pull down my sleeves...i was being warned previously...heard form jie that the og head today not in a good mood..and she previously banned a lot of staffs..fuck

the person i missed most is jie...she had been acting as my elder sister since the first day i worked at og...

if i look at things at another perspective perharps its good for me as i can find a new job and can stop working with that old bitch full timer...unreasonable bitch...she herself mixed things up and still want me to follow her instructions...two different people order a number of ties...Mr A and Mr B respectively...she mixed up asking me to give Mr A ties which my sales rep brought from offices to Mr B...at first i thought the customer she mentioned is Mr A then i never ask her further...who knows Mr B came and want to see his ties and told me that old bitch ask him to come at 3 ( by that time she already went home ) Mr B came and i was confused as i did not know wad ties he wants so i called that old bitch...she insisted the ties my sales rep brought down is for Mr B and when i told her is Mr A's ties she said just tell Mr B wad he want dun have stock ask Mr B to pick Mr A's ties...at the moment theres only 3 letters circuling around my head..W and T and F...WTF...so i hung up her fucking phone and told Mr B i not sure...at that moment my face was unfriendly...i admited...becos i am fucking pissed by that old bitch...so Mr B scolded me and wanted to complain me...just then my sale rep came down and ask him wad happen....in the end my sale rep manage to brn the ties he want from the office...this shows that old bitch didn even make an effort to order what Mr B wants and instead ask me to give Mr B Mr A'S TIES !!! and when i ask the phone number of Mr A she said she put inside a box but theres none and SHE INSISTED !!! she even scolded me " tell u things u only know how to oh oh oh "...and her tone is fucking sound like a fucking bitch...just wanted to go to her hrs and fuck her...

i bet the moment she heard me ban she will rub salt on the wounds and mock at me infront of other colleagues tml...just hope jie will help jie will not throw her temper when she hears that old bitch speaks evil abt me...afraid she might get ban if she raise her voice...

it seemed weird...whenver theres a girl i wanted to be friends with then slowly develop i will get ban...last time at RC i wanted to know a ger and both of us seemed to get along well then got ban...now theres a ger nowdays i get along with then when things started to get spark i got ban...didn even ask her hp number...i was thinking she lived at simei quite near me so can slowly develop...coicendence ? or its is fated i cannot befriend other gers....i was not thinking of wooing her immediately...hope to develop our relationship stages by stages..

there are alot of ppl i gonna miss...been working there for abt a year already...i jus smsed my sales rep for apologze and thanks her for her guidence during the days i worked with her at taka...and also told her i am quitting as i cant adapt another working environment doing the same thing same job...

i will be starting to look for jobs from tml onwards...moving towards the next chapter of my life

2008-08-26T01:50:00.002+08:00

1:50am

just finish updating my MP logbook...its been many weeks since my supervisor signed it...tml i gonna ask him to sign for me...

PR2 is a disater...first my speech which i finished on 3am was infected by virus and cant open it...then it was the critisim the judges who was my CM Mr Lum gave me...our pp silde focus too much on the process...theres two things he said left a deep impression and i told myself i will never forget in my life...1) a good engineer will only present the result of its product and not the process of producing this product...2) nowdays we youngsters are easily contented when achieved a bit of things...i been considering this two points he made during his judgement for days...his words somehow lighted up my desire to crave for success, the hunger for it...

after PR2 i still have a SIP report consist of 1.5k min words to hand up by friday...till now i still only managed to write a few...still a long way to go...one of the reason is because i dunno what to write....after seeing wad i did during this 7 weeks...but i told myself this small setbacks wun defeat me...i gonna complete it by friday...

i had planned to start doing my SIP presentation after my SIP report...though the presentation took place at the third week of next sem...i already highlighted some task to do for my presentation...as Mr Lum said focus on the result...i will be taking videos and pictures on the result i achieved from the projects i did and try to elaborate them...compared to my other friends group on what they did i really felt ashamed of myself...i dun feel any sense of achievement when doing this project...so i gonna feel it through the SIP report and the presentation...i told myself i had already come this far and regret is not acceptable....so this is the last opportunity i have to show the judges...

today slept till 1pm plus....not working....i hate sleeping till late afternoon...i felt i had no different to a corpse...so i met eddie for gyming and running after his sch...indeed i felt refreshed...its ok...tml will always be a better day...dawn is not far away from dusk...

2008-08-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

windy

its the 16th week and i was completely doing nth regarding MP in sch...i was wating for that fuck to come down and see the stretcher's stand jj and i did...as a teacher he shld know the importance of showing an good example for his students and yet he didn showed himself when he agreed to meet us...he was supposed to meet us ytd and was delayed till today and yet he didn showed himself again...i was thinking to start working during weekdays as if the stretcher's stand has no problem i can annouce my sem break begins...and yet that motherfuck kept delaying....this morning he came but he didn came to check the stretcher's stand but instead assign jj and another grp another assignment...same old stuff...scaffolds...

tml will be going down for the interview for the samsung hp promoter job....hope everthing will go smoothly...this job has a higher pay and double pay during ph...theres commission too...but theres a target to reach by selling numbers of hp they targeted a day...i was eager to change a new working environment too...although i will miss jie...

i was glad i can shoot quite ok nowdays...at least theres a bit power and higher...compared to the rolling ground balls previously...hope to learn to capture the direction so i can shoot to where i wan to...i used to bother too much on dribbling...hope to learn my firat touch well , composure and positioning....this week i realised i headed quite well...much to my surprise...haha...

2008-07-08T23:38:00.002+08:00

drizzel

its the last week for MP...next week is the begining of SIP which means i dun have to clock in clock out anymore...but i still tell myself to reach on time in case my teacher come into my lab looking for me and when i am not around even though i have the excuse he will get pissed...moreover even though i am not a punctual person i still nd to think of my grpmate as a kind of respect...

this few days been going out to buy stainless steel piping and workshops which provides the service of bending stainless steel...been to ubi for the past 2 days to look but only manage to buy a stainless steel with a smaller OD than the sample my supervisor gave to me...heard one of the ubi workshop uncle mentioned that theres one workshop help customer to bend stainless steel at jalan besar..so this afternoon after lunch i went to jalan besar to find that workshop...fortunately god blessed i found it but the boss is not around and his staff dunno how to operate the machine...so i have to go down again tml...hopefully i can succeed as the previous assignments my supervisor gave me regarding machinaries i screwed it

finally i had a football team...theres really a dream come true to me...i never think of joining any football team because i dunno how to play even though i wanted to learn...in the past i was often boycott by my classmates due to my shy characteristic and my strict family rules which forbidden me to stay out late after sch so didn have many chances to play football..really learnt alot from my teamates...they taught me and never despised me even though i am a beginner...i really indebted to cal as hes the one putting a lot of good words infront of my captain who is his coursemate...got my jersy today...beh 88...but didn play well comapred to ytd...probably because my mood affected me...as i dun like one of the player who gives me a know-it-all type person...and i dun like the way he talkes to me...but its still my fault...for allowing my emotion to affect my play...i must learn to look at the bigger picture and not let such peanut matter destorys it...

today was shocked to receive her sms asking to meet her for lunch...with the other ocp and a friend of hers...but i understand that msg was sent to the others too...but im glad i was considered one of her friends now...today he said theres once she ask him to accompany her to give her friend a present...honestly i dun feel good...but i cant show it out...now their relationship seemed to develop as they tend to scold each other..

2008-06-10T21:01:00.003+08:00

10/6/08

Sunny

time passes and now is the 8th week of the MP period...looking forward to SIP so i dun have to clock in clock out.

Currently everthing is considered quite ok for my MP. I had finished drawing the scaffold and convert the file into a manufacturing file...i m glad for my progress..though i still have much to learn from the technicians...im really grateful to them...especially mr tay...he didn find me a nuisance as im a slow learner...sadly to say compare to someone who know me since sec one and finds me a nuisance , mr tay is really someone im fully respect and impressed...

someone who expects me to understand his situation when hes critisiming me behind me to someone who know for 2 mths instead of talking to me in the first hand. jus becoz i dun heed his advice...when someone thinks hes better than u there will be no ' discussion ' exist in the team...so if he disrespect me how could i respect him and heed his advice ? moreover i didn ask for his advice in the first place...the more he says the more confusing i am...and thus led to delayness of the process...sometimes he dun even understands my question and started to say something which confuse me even more...the moment he thinks hes better hes better than that person EVERYTHING ! e.g liverpool...i AM a 100% kopites.." owen is in liverpool...." wad a joke...when i try to say owen already left liverpool for a long long time " i like to say leh i dunno abt soccer ma..." so if u dunno y shows ur stupidity and amking a fool of urself ? evertime when im trying to explaining something to him...he will never i mean NEVER say oh i see...either " aiya i dunno la " or disagrees.. " aiya i dunno la " ....obviously he dun seemed convinced when i told him something he do not know...to make it simple whatever i said is bullshit to him....someone whos pride is important than anything...well im one too...but humility is the difference between us..." im doing the project for u" sounds noble isnt ? wad a joke....didn he get a grade for himself after finish MP ? his friend ask him to join them previously....so do i my dear friend....i could have group with ken and perharps another member...at least i will certainly have the respect of listening my suggestion whether reject or accept at least ken will try to listen...

jus learnt some basic passing and shooting skills with cal...hope to play tml...cal gave me a new liverpool home jersy for my present...no amount of words can i use to express my appreciation to him...he shared his knowledge with me...guided me...and never ever despised me...the above shows that im one of the most important friend in his life...so do i man...

from 9am to 5:30pm the most enjoyable period i had is every lunchtime....at least this is the only oppotunity i can see her face...have a small chat...

2008-04-29T17:06:00.001+08:00

taken before leaving asia hotel

2008-04-29T17:00:00.001+08:00

drank red wine with jiang nan on our flight departing from cambodia to spore...Cheers !

2008-04-28T22:03:00.003+08:00

sunny

saw her ytd...yea its her...i was working at og albert and was going for my lunch break when i saw her walking with her friends....wearing a blue shirt....didn call her...becos she walked too fast...moreover i had to recover my sense a few sec later....in the end i decided not to walk to her and say hi...perharps we are meant to remain as passer-by...

such a conicidence...cal was in the same lab as lalita...thnks to his sms...let me know abt it...

nd to submit my video by this friday....everything's going quite smoothly at the moment...well so far so good....

last sat had lunch with yi xuan and she shared with me abt her relationship with her bf...she said she used to admire couples but now when she had a bf she felt stressed...shes not happy that her bf brought his friend without telling her and she dun like his friend as she admited shes a self-centered person...well i told her every couple need to accomodate each other ( learnt it from tv ) later on she asked me what type of ger i like and wanted to intro me gers...i was dumbfounded for a moment and she told me im blushing....i lied to her saying the chilli was spicy...well i told her i dun mind looks....i hope my future gf was not those childish type....its hard to explain when love comes knocking ur door....no other particular types...i do admit looks do have a certain advantage...especially firat impression...perharps why im sitll single ) :

actually though i only know her for a few mths i can see that yi xuan was a sensible ger....even jason said that too....very few gers nowdays are willing to chiong work and earn $$$...moreover her job was quite tough too...tougher than mine....and she kept working full-shift...she really impressed me....

2008-04-28T16:52:00.004+08:00

this photo was taken at the Genocide Museum...this place is the prison cell used to keep prisoners...even a small built guy like me had difficulties lying down in the cells...

This child is an orphan in the orphanage. Heard from mr andy quek someone abandonded him when he was only a baby. if my memory served me correctly he was five now...

mooo lol

snatched this golden opportunity to take photo with this ger...same as me 20 yr old...she speaks chinese...shes the shirt stall vendor...honestly speaking shes chio ( :

2008-04-28T16:30:00.002+08:00

this is the process of digging trench so the wires can be installed underground. I personally enjoyed that moment , although its tough....having blisters all over my palm....but this is the moment where friendship was built up...

this was the first day of our digging process....the guy behind me was desmond...

enjoying the beauty of natural...these are the padi field...where our rice was grown....

Taken with Lalita in the toto , a local transport which a motorbike was connected together with a carriage ( the place where we sitting )....moments later....the unfortunately and dishearting incident happened....when the child came to me begging for money....

this is where i bath at the orphanage

this is our guys dorm

my bed...the best bed as its juz directly under the air-con and fan ( :

2008-04-28T16:24:00.001+08:00

all the gers from TP OCP 2008

2008-04-28T11:58:00.001+08:00

all the guys from TP OCP 2008

2008-04-27T01:42:00.004+08:00

2008-04-27T01:42:00.002+08:00

2008-04-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

fine

today is the third day of the new semester...currently doing my final year project ( FYP) with my team member and also my friend jun jie...we are doing a project which produce scafford...which is use to replace damaged joints or knee cap...we will be design it using a software named pro engineer....after that we will produce the scafford using hands on method which i still not very sure....during this few days jun jie and i were using the pro engineer software to do some practice inside our assigned lab - blk 18 lvl 6....this venue was somehow special to me....because during my ocp preparation we are using a classroom there....we used for practicing our dance....having our briefing....this place was full of memories....everday since sch starts whenever i passed by the ocp classroom i will glanced it for a while....seeing those students inside the classroom reminds me myself and 17 fellow teamates....those happy moments....

didn managed to write when i reached spore coz im really too tired....during the cambodia trip i mus say i learn alot and experience alot at the same time....i had seen the poverty side of the world....which i might not see it in spore....yet above this poverty is the beauty of simplicity....compared to singapore's stressful society....theres once where we nd to dig the ground so we can put wires underground.....i kept digging...well i dunno wad motivates me for doing that....maybe i was trying to impress someone ? lol ...me together with jiang nan desmond jiahu and ah gui we kept digging though mr chia our ocp teacher in charge asked us not to as he scared we dun have anything to do the next day....but we refused and kept digging....seeing my fellow teamates never say die attitude...i told myself how could i give up ? so i kept digging....finally we made it....the sense of satisfaction was undescriable....

the last night we danced the dance we practice in spore for the kids...i made many errors as i didn practice much in spore because im busy editing my video....i felt embarassed but well the kids were laughing...after all its worth it....to hear their laughter and see them smile...we took alot of pictures with the kids....theres one of my ocp teamate cried that night probably he missed the kids....we leave ard 8 am plus the next morning....some kids were crying but we mus return to the place we truly belong....i really hope i can have the chance to return there again....really....

we checked in at asia hotel when we reach the capital....i thought the capital will be much better in terms of facilities and the people but to my astonishing theres beggers lothering ard begging for food and money.....that night when we returned to our hotel after our dinner travelling by a local cehicle called toto a young child came to me and grab my arms....he spoke karma but i understand hes begging for money....that moment was disheartening....i couldnt believe wad i saw in my own eyes....i looked at my friends they were like me stunned too....i reached my pocket wanted to give him all the money i had but i remembered mr andy quek told us not to give those beggers money as the consequencence will be very ugly...the kid might get beaten up by older begger by trying to snatch the money or my friends might get hurt if other older begger came to us asking for money....some might armed...thinking of my friends' safety i shook my head unwillingly...stating i wun give the little begger money...it was a hard decision but i had to make as my friends' safety were more important...

i hardly managed to get some slp because of that incident....and also heard some ghost stories in the past abt old hotels....i didn slp much that night....jiang nan told me to knock the door two times and put our slippers one upside down which means yin yang aura that help to drive "them" away....

the next morning jiang nan and i got up very early as we were going for shopping at the local market....i bought some t-shirts for my family...one adidas and nike sports wear lol they looks geniune....only cost usd 4.50...heard from my the other ocp teamate actually those adidas and nike sports wear were geniune its juz they were rejected due to handmade error....those ending at market....i also bought 2 shorts.....beach wear like....quite cool....abt 5 usd together....and also i bought a watch..lol the brand is armani....which geniune goods cost 4 figures sum....lol i only spent 30 usd....

before reaching the capital we visited the museum which was used as a concentrating camp during the karma rouge region during the 1970s....it was a school previously...however the barbaric pot pot who was the leader of the communist party used it to torture prisoners and thousand was killed over there.....i felt sorry for the innocent lives who was killed...may their soul rest in peace....theres a chill feeling when i saw the photos of the dead and the tools used for torturing.....

this trip will remain an unforgetable chapter in my life....those memories i had with u guys will always be treasured in a place of my heart....really missed the smile and laughter of her......anyway a guy in my ocp wanted to woo her....so perharps im too late....met her today for lunch with the other ocp teamates.....her smile was sweet....well well well im still single isnt haha

2008-04-08T00:29:00.002+08:00

fine

finally after weeks of editing my ocp pre-cambodia video were rdy to show my ocp teamates but not fully completed as some part of the video didn manage to add songs....atthough im not the videography in charge i did almost all the editing...on last sunday i asked him to cancel out most of the audio and add songs but he didn....in the end some of my ocp teamates asked me why isnt there any songs on some part of the video....as the 1st IC didn show enough initiative....its quite frustrating working with him....his attitude didn convince me that hes keen to do this job....when i pointed out some error he will give me a very bo chap attitude and reply ....." aiya a bit only dun care la...." which seriously pissed me off....furthermore he often skipped our ocp meeting because of private matter such as - going chalet....he even quarreled with the technician whos in charge of our solar lamp for our ocp project becoa he said the technician is being unreasonable and demand a lot....i have to admit the technician is a demanding person....and his tone might be sacarstic sometimes....but i find him quite ok after abt 2 weeks of communication....as i mentioned earlier in my previous entry i learnt quite a number of things from him....in terms of work effiency and also the correct way of soldering....this shows that chap did not have a positive working attitude and it really questions me his motive of joining this ocp.....heard from our team leader its because his mum want him to change so she forced him to participate....my GPA is lower than him yet im confident in terms of work effiencies im better than him....wad i nd is not a smartass to be my partner....all i nd is a someone who will put in effort and commitment and the initiative to work....unfortunately hes not....i do not fancy whether if who deserve the videography in charge all i nd to do is to fulfil my responsibility as a videographer....take pictures and record videos during every events....and also edit the video i recorded every night...

will be flying this thursday 6:30 am....T2....fortunately i live quite near from the airport....bus 24 straight bus there....will be going for 10 days.....heard mr andy that we still nd to change flight and also take bus and then ferry in order to reach the villiage....by the time we reach guess it will already be evening.....hope everything goes smoothly during the trip....hope liverpool will defeat arsenal on tml morning champions leauge 2nd ties....in liverpool we believe

2008-03-28T22:18:00.002+08:00

sunny

fallen sick 2 nights ago....vomited and having diarrhoea....fortunately aunt mary medicine cured me....most probably is the ban mian cost my sickness....the other possibility is i ran abt 8 rounds of stadium then didn eat on time....over-exhuastion maybe....

things going quite smoothly for OCP preparation....my video-editing were doing quite well too....perharps now wads left is our sing and dance rehersal for entertainment events....well i do feel quite embarassed but if it can trade the smiles and laughters of the orphans it will definately worth it....

currently jobless....urgently nd to find a new jopb when sch reopen...might nd to work during every fridays....but worry that might affect my MPSIP.....sigh.....

2008-03-21T00:22:00.002+08:00

sunny

this morning went to east coast park for cycling with ocp teamates and our teacher-in-charge mr andy quek....i was the one suggesting this activity so u could imagine how anticipating am i....supposed to meet marcus and go together with him as i dunno the exact location well but decided to slp longer as the morning rain caused my procrastination....so in the end had to trouble my father's taxi to drive me there....fortunately managed to reach on time....ard 10 plus everyone were present....after taking our bike...off we set !! our destination is changi villiage...the whole journey was long....during our journey we cycle passed changi airport...changi ferry terminal...after we reached changi villiage some of us had our lunch at the hawker center over there....ate curry cha cai bung....drank watermelon cum pineapple juice...not bad actually....after finishing our food mr quek wanted us t0o set off asap as our rental time is going to reach....i hope to wait for the other teamates who havent finish their food but decided to set off first as i thought there will be a fine....

this is my first time cycling from east coast park to changi villiage....managed to view some beautiful scenaries...the whole experience was enjoyable, fun and exciting....helps me to train my stamina to prepare for football games too....i really hope i can cycle such a long journey again with few of my good friends....

after finishing our cycling adventure we went to the cathay to watch semi-pro....although is was a comedy but i felt this movie taught us never give up and to fight till the end....in this movie the basketball teams managed by the main actor was going to disband as their league was going to end....the top four team will be promoted to the nba....their team played badly in the begining...no skills...no tatics...no morale...but they managed to turn the tide and was going to finish the forth place....however the board decided to reject their team to enter the nba as their market was small....but they managed to fight even though there seemed nth to win for.....but what they will be winning is their pride....this reminds me of liverpool fc....although we are out of the epl title race.....we must still fight for the forth spot.....the morale of this movies motivates me in some way....not a bad movie....although it cost me 10 bucks....

while i was having my bath i realised i had sunburn on my arms.....my ocp teamates had sunburnt after the cycling....i though my skin was strong enough lol in the end my skin juz react slower to the sunburn....

2008-03-16T02:06:00.002+08:00

sunny

today was a pleasent day for me because i finally got a new desktop and a new speaker...bought them from sam's working shop....with them my life will be more interesting..i'm able play fifa and fm with cal online....the whole desktop costs me 810 the speaker costs 79...upon hearing my old desktop had broke down aunt mary decide to help me....of course i took it as a loan and she agrees...after ur graduation and NS u will pay me back says aunt mary....

currently re-taking my o lvl english as i hope to achieve at least a c6....

this few days was in sch doing my OCP preparation....befriend a few of my OCP teamates whos also football kakis...although theres one guy who disguises me for his know-all altitude and arroganance....just hope everything will be fine when we reach cambodia....learnt how to soldering properly thanks to Mr How for his guidance....though hes very demanding as he is a perfectionist....due to this one of my teamate was fed-up that he went out after mr how asked him to get out for showing his disrespect by stating he cant do wad mr how expects him to do.....i told myself not to get distracted and managed to complete by soldering 12 5cm wires into a cube....however mr how rejected it and the nest day i have to solder a smaller cube made of 12 3 cm wires...in the end my hard work was paid off and mr how finally allowed me to do soldering of the circuit for our solar lamps....the next day me together with another teamate of mins completed solered all the circuits....

hope to find a new job as i had enough of my full-timer....last sat i was not feeling well in the morning.....i felt cold and my body was aching...this were symtouns for fever but i still forced myself to work....but i felt worse during evening and when i told my full timer she showed her displeasure and demanded i could not leave unless someone came tor replace me...fortunately wei sheng whos has quite a good terms with me came to replace me.....my full-timer doesn care my life and death....this is ridiculars...she had violated human rights ! perharps thnks to her bad-mouthing the new sales rep only allows me to work once a week....how could i possibly earn enough for my bills and expenses ? she said she will called me when someone took leave....which gives me an impression im treated like a call girl....prostitudes.....fucking shit....

i hope to find a new job after i came back from cambodia....might nd to seek help from yi xuan or xiang lin....my friends from OG who works for levis.....heard the pay is much higher....hope i can be brought out from hell....

2008-02-28T23:24:00.002+08:00

cloudy

completed all my 3 papers.....the first 2 papers seemed ok to me but the last one was quite disappointing because....perharps its the last paper...signs of complacenency begins to show....didn study much for the last paper....skipped the last question as i dun have any idea how to solve....for now i could only pray hard i dun get a sup paper because if the sup paper date falls on within the date of my ocp trip i will be devasted....by the time i would have pay for my air tickets....bought all the necessities items for my trip....ytd i jus spend 70 making a new passport at ica building....i really dunno wad to do if i really got a sup paper....hope my coursework will pull me up.....

my best pal cal finally had a gf as he had been single for a long time.....frankly speaking sometimes i do hope to befriend a oppo sex friend..whom i hope can develop our relationship....i haven had a gf in my 19 plus yrs of life...especially at night..the coldness and lonelyness is hard to withstand.....due to my average look and shy behavior flirting with strangers is a impossible task for me....i didn grab my change during secondary sch...in poly theres isn any ger in my tutorial class....well i do have one in this current sem who sometime i really want to have a small chat but my guts held me back everytime....anyway shes a smoker so....doesn gave me a good impression of her.....at work well i do have some female colleagues whos abt the same age as me....hope to encounter someone who share the same chemistry as mine....ASAP "O"

2008-02-07T03:27:00.000+08:00

windy

today was the eve of chinese new year....had steamboat reunion dinner with my father mother and my elder brother who juz came back from pular tekong....he shared with us his exp at there...funny to know how officers scolded new recruits....all kinds of vulgarities u can imagine...after dinner had a short rest then headed to chinatown to feel the atmosphere of the crowd....at first brother was reluctant becoz he was tired but we managed to force him going together....at first the crowd over there is ok but it became more n more until i cant even move sometimes....as some ppl was walking the opposite direction....we bought some egg rolls and cakes....we stayed there roughly abt 2 hr plus...then return home....
today had my cktcs lab assignment interview....fortunately my teacher ' pung chui ' if not i sure fail lol....now wads left is pedrive mini project...( which don looks mini to me in terms of difficulty lol ) uart mask designing and mtnproj report....and lastly revision for exam....3 papers altogether....hope things will go smoothly for me this year.....
valentine's day....same as usual.....lonesome.....

2008-01-19T01:26:00.000+08:00

sunny day

its been a while since blogging....had received my termtest paper glad all manage to pass though i expect a better result....these days been stressed by projects....mtnproj...cktcs lab.....pedrive mini project....orgcom....uart presentation....meeting of supervisor for nxt sem mpsip....
sigh...due to my limited intelligency i seemed to cant help much for the grp projects im involved....been depending on richmond....i wanted to help....really....but i juz cant help much....felt like a burden sometime.....i swear to my honour i am not a free-loader....juz do as much as i could....i would like to thx richmond after everything is settled....wishes him all the best for his world skill competition....im glad im able to withness a growing period of a promising lad...
recently juz bought a shoebag from mr J....earlier he mentioned he nd to save $ for cyn clothes....so although he asked for quite an unreasonable price for his shoebag i dun mind....simply becoz i treated him as a friend rather than a classmate....sadly to say his attitude is quite bizzare....today he suddenly blamed me for pushing man u fan to him for pedrive grp project as man u fan had a good reputation of hitch hiking....well not giving a lift but projects in this case...i will like to explain that earlier gym boy had already asked me to join him....i agreed as i m ok with it....all is left was that man u fan and mr j....mr j friends already formed a grp as each grp can only have 2 members....i will like to ask him if i didn ask him to join man u fan will he insists on joining his friend ? what will man u fan think ? we are classmates after all....he likes to be a decision maker...but didn spare a thought for others....a money-minded person yet his family financial background is much better than mine....but i realise there are someway hes similar to me....much to my surprise he put me as his featured friends in friendster....
speaking of man u fan it really makes me rofl....there was once he called me HEY BRO !!! .....simply becoz hes trying to persuade me to join his company....selling medical products...if i join he benefits for expanding his network = ++ $$$ .....but his attitude change after i rejected his offer....first of all the BRO is gone...second whenever he sees me he gives me a feeling....a mocking feeling....sometimes i wonder whos he mocking at...liverpool fc or me.....the eyes and the body language speaks for the mind....play dumb is my only defence weapon for now....becoz ppl like him i dislike the word bro from now on...the only brother i have is my real blood elder brother....
someone once told me im too suspicious....too straight-foward....perharps im too sensitive towards body language and one's eyes...
saw peiling today while going home....told her abt having a steamboat at mdm ong hrs....really looking forward to visit mdm ong.....i misses her....and her laughter....

2007-12-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

10:32pm

jus finish my term test last week...hope able to pass all of them...been working for the past few days....com's motherboard had spoited...hope to save up for a com ard march nxt year....currently working at og albert bugis....quite annoyed working with a mood-swing auntie....sympathise her as she told me she nd $ to pay for someone's medical bills...and dorrean said whenever a part timer came a full timer commission nd to cut half....upon hearing that i work harder than ever by serving customers in a better way...explaining my products and sometimes chat with them....but i lost my patience with my full timer when she was rude to me...though i didn do anything wrong...i have to wait till nxt year before i can return to rc....where i enjoy working there....i saw a colleague working at rc ytd but not sure thats her at the beginning....

2007-11-27T20:36:00.000+08:00

windy

juz managed a pass for my pedrive quiz...forgotten that theres a quiz at that day so didn prepare well....tml will be my cktcs lab test...hope i can make it...bought a zinc bag for alwyn for his bday present and pass to him tml...currently busy doing my uart mosaic....got to visit spore art museum asap for my art review...guess i cant complete my mosaic by tml as i re-do it a week ago becoz of my stubborness of refusal to listen to my teacher's advice...its great not to give up easily but we muz know our limits sometimes....mtnproj test and project on nxt week...still cant fork out time to hand my letter to fazilah....sincerly hope the rc robinson management will forgive me and retain my vocation....hope liverpool will beat porto and advance to the nxt stage of the UCL...YNWA

2007-11-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

shower

today is father's birthday...bought a cake at bengawan solo and his favourite ba qua barbaqued pork...brother bough a pizza and spegatti...today started doing my u-art mosiac...jus managed to do a small portion within 2 hrs....nxt week got cktcs and netfund quizes....aim to get a good start for this sem.....this is my final opportunity....

2007-10-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

windy

today is the third of sch....so far so good....able to catch up the pace....juz get caught off a bit during the mntproj...need to pay two times of attention nxt week....that was the first ever class jj shared with me during our poly eudcation....thx to jj i able to finish it....this shows jj can study...he is juz lazy.....hope he can do better this sem....on the other hand myself nd to improve too....the new cds i taking is quite unique compared to other cds subject...understanding arts....today the teacher let us view some meaningful quotes from those famous artises...those quotes show each of every artises' view and opinion and perspective towards art....

2007-10-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

shower

today was my day off...was thinking of going sch gym and read tian xia comic after that but it rained when i woke up....so had no choice but to cancel it...didn do much today....decided to clean my table because i didn clean it for a long time....it took abt almost an hour to finish it....i thought it was a simple task....it makes me realise something isnt as simple as i think before i do it myself...after cleaning it the pail of water became black...cant imagine how dirty my room table isnt ? some people keep dogs because they thought keeping dogs will improve their social position and showing off but to me keeping a dog means befriending a new friend to me....oscar is a nice dog....its innocence gives me a sense of comfort...especially when it fallen a sleep and look at me when i am eating...however someone juz treat it like juz a dog....always look it in the kitchen...whats wrong with letting it roam freely ard the house with the rooms door closed ? juz asked $$$ from my father to pay my cable tv bills because i am saving for a lap top...i treat it as a loan i promise him i will return him after i bought a laptop....i felt bad asking $$$ for my father because i told him i will handle the bills when i was subscribing during last year world cup period....but the bills seemed getting higher and higher...recently they juz added 10 bucks for the sports group....with only adding a few useless channels...really looking forward to start my sch and acheving gd result for my father and return my debt for taking care of me for all this years....

2007-10-08T22:07:00.000+08:00

drizzle

didn work for almost a week...finally got to work this wednesday.....been doing almost nothing except going to gym or meet sammie for dinner and also practicing free-hand sketching....i like to sketch ppl faces whom i like...so far i had drawn jay zhou and ronaldo....need more practice though...i hope to draw more ppl faces becoz i enjoy capturing a person's facial expression and from that i can roughly guess one's feeling....being aiming to save up for a printer cum scanner so hopefully i can put some of my sketching on this blog....been learning swimming from wei ren and sammie...hope to learn how to swim so wun suffer when serving my ns...

2007-09-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

rainy day

juz taken my sup paper ytd....ytd was a tiring day as i nd to wake up 7 plus as my sup paper started at 9:30....i finished my paper ard 11....i heard ppl saying sup paper is easier...some say harder...i myself think it is abt the same standard as the exam paper....no much differnet....hope i can pass and successfully proceed to the nxt semester....after that rushed home eaten my lunch...dressed up and rushed to work....finish my work till 9:30....reached home nearly 11...was tired and my footsole was nearly having blisters....fortunately it healed the nxt day....today was quite a busy day....been serving a lot of customer today...some bought a number of belts...this past 2 days been arriving late for work....though is a few mins but punctuality is very important on work....got to wake up earlier....was delighted torres scored his first hat trick during ytd carling cup match against reading....n1 torres....didn watch that match as i nd to slp to prepare for my sup paper.....but cant slp as i drank with jun lin and jian wei after finish our revising....i didn bath as i had bath before meeting them after my gym with sammie....in the end my body was very hot..cant slp well....it is hearbroken that someone whom u cared gave u cold replys after showing them much concerns...shou yi tao zhuo yi tao....

2007-09-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

every sat work till 11pm....feeling exhuasted...tiring...was thinking of discuss it with my manager to change my scheduel during weekends to morning....if rejected i will had no choice but to change a job...moreover i kept missing my liverpool matches...3 more days before my sup paper...didn study much as most of time when i reach home im exhuasted....this time...i am prepared for the worst....today sold quite a lot of product...compared to 2 days ago where i only sell 2 items...being mocked by a colleague that i look like garfield...i gonna use my tie and strangle her...anyway its juz a joke....so busy until i dun have time for gym.....looks like i nd to delay my plan to buy a laptop....nd to scrimp and save every penny....thought i will gained self-confident after working this current job but i m still shy...didn talk a lot...juz greet those who smile at me....but i can present myself better when speaking to ang moh....juz dun quite understand their accent....

2007-09-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

disappointed....crestfallen....ashamed....can believe i failed my pod....i had so much confidence for my pod that i aimed at least a grade c....how i possibly failed ? the subject i expected to fail yet pass...i was thinking of going to sch and check my pod exam scripts....but find it wasting of time...im not a sore loser...its jus i really cant accept it...i did well for my coursework i pass my term test and both my quizes..and also my lab...i only skipped one lab...which wun affect much to my final grade...when i finished my pod exam paper i felt quite confident...i really cant believe it....really....unexpected...met jason for gym this noon....supposed to meet at 11 but was overslept coz body was aching as i went to gym ytd...train abt one hour then went to clark quay as jason went for a job interview....after went to orchard for a drink as jason waiting his gf finishing her work....checked my result at there...disappointed then....tis is my first ever sup paper in my poly education....i didn study hard the previous semester but i manage to pass all...yet this semester i did put in much effort but i failed the sub which i had the highest expectation....i swear this will be my first and the last sup paper....start revising now....i wonder how ms k managed to know what i wrote in my blog....and msg me the longest sms i had ever received...i dun think she read my blog....i didn reply...coz i dunno wad to reply...

2007-09-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

today is my first day working at taka....my job was selling men assessories...from 1:30 to 9:30...daniel is my new colleague he explained my task and also joined him for lunch and i really appreciate his guidance...hope my performance can reach the lady boss expectation coz she told me i will work for one week first....depends on my performance...if succeed i can cont work...tml is my off day...will be going down to cold storage to return my uniform and sign my resignation form....even my taka job refuse to employ me after a week i will b looking for other job as i am looking for a new and better working environment....

2007-08-31T23:52:00.000+08:00

today was the eve of teacher day...met jj at 10 plus to visit our sec teachers....when we reached our first thought was to find our chinese teacher mdm ong....to me shes not only my teacher shes like a mum to me....after a short conversation mdm ong said they nd to rush for a meeting at 11am....so we cant meet a lot of teachers....saw mrs pereira but shes in a hurry so we didn chat....after leaving chai chee sec we headed for a breakfast....after breakfast i bid jj farewell and headed home....after resting for a while going down to bugis for 2 job interivews...one is abt doing survey for a specified target the other is selling bags...for the survey job they nd ppl who are out-spoken....not quite suitable for a shy person like me....they having a training sesssion at monday 3 pm im still considering....as for the bag job im quite ok with it...paid wise is acceptable....working hours and days is ok for me....the interviewer told me nxt week she will give me a call....if successful i will quit cold storage...mr b juz received a huge compensation....during sec 4 mr b was knocked down by a motorcycle....with the help of his uncle mr b managed to hired a lawyer and sue the motorcyclist...in the end mr b won and will b receving a huge compensation when he reaches 21 yr old....recently he juz received it....however he didn wan to let his father know....he said the money will be use for his uni fee....but he hinted to his father he expected his father to pay for his uni....he expected his father to give him money until he complete uni....so wad abt the compensation money ??he used it to buy a dog....named oscar...he lied to his father it was given by a friend.....unfortunately he had a incompetent mum who always helped him cover his secrets...since young....since he began to reaches 21 mr b ignores his brother....treat him as a stranger....his brother and mr b dun have a gd relationship....mr b bro thinks mr b is a selfish and ungrateful trash.....he already given up on mr b.....mr b and his brother is born in a poor and but no humble family thx to their mother.....

2007-08-29T01:12:00.000+08:00

this afternoon juz taken my maths paper.....quite well done i can say.....juz a bit careless....hope my mths of hardwork will paid off....all i left is my dynamic paper...right now i am copying past year paper answer...hope this might help me for my preparation......recently i had given up on someone....someone whos my friend since sec 1....looks like mr a was correct...someone nd to fall to realise the pain....no matter how i tried to ask him to study with me he rejected and gave excuses....he juz dunno wads the meaning of play hard and work hard at the same time...he always thinks hes right...i mean ALWAYS...if ur " bei fen " is same as him he will think u dun have the right to teach him wad to do but he has the right to teaches u....and sadly to say most of them are craps....which mr a agrees....when mr a asks me not to bother him i still believe he will improve but hes disappointing.....not to me but maybe to his family which i not very sure abt it....taking sup paper give u encouragement ? encouragement of wad ? it will only hinder u towards a better and brighter future and also finding a better paid job.....he said he nd to work to help lessen the family burden...which is gd but at the same time his grade suffer....wad i tink is tis is still not the time for him to work and earn $$$ to help support the family....his job for support the family is to achieve gd grades for his parents and to make them understand their son didn disappointed them after so many years of education....and with gd grades thus finding a high paid job in the future then his job is to support the family income....which he will nv realise i suppose....when asked him in msn tml working as if not i will ask him out for study he replied dun beat ard the bush.... ??? moreover he knew i was going to ask him out for study...as though i was going to borrow $$$ from him....his reply is rude....for all i did worth this kind of reply ??? e.g hes always right when he smsed me ytd he sent the same msg twice i replied u sent me twice and i said sure....but he denied and said only once....well nvm i hope he will realise the " pain " before he falls....the pain of being despise by this society....he could have play bball and study hard at the same time which i said play hard and work hard at the same time but he chooses to play....thats all....hes given a oppotunity to achieve a better future and he chooses to forsake it....if hes a rich ass u can say i wanted his fortune for treating so well....but hes juz the same as me....father is a taxi-driver....all i can do now is to wishes him well....

2007-08-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

been studying recently....finished my mct paper....thx to jason for explaning some tough questions the night before the exam....manage to solve some section B questions....juz feel didn prepare well enough....so left maths n pod....proud of liverpool result especially torres he didn disappointed the kop....been having trouble of slping this few days...perhaps is the stress of exam....tml meeting jason at sch for revising....sigh seriously nd to go gym....beer belly is coming out ( : coz jason asks me along during holiday....thinkin of asking sammie along then will cont our " old days " HA...last time go gym isnt seriously train now i am all gear up....used to get mock already so as long im determined i will success....

2007-08-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

this morning drank a can of 500ml beer as i cant slp beoz ytd i slp very late thus waking up ard late afternoon....my urine was full of alcohol smell....this is the first time..thankfully i didn vomit or feeling giddy badly this morning....met jun lin ard 2 plus at bedok inter for studying....was planning to study at library but when we reached there the library was packed.....wad pissed me was some ppl can slp there....they shld have give us the seat....so we have no choice but to change location....i suggested studying at bedok cc so both of us went there but found out that was not bad place to study as a number of problematic youngsters hanging ard there....they made a lot of noise....both of us ended up copying notes...jl copied mct notes from me and i copied maths answer from transparency as i arrived late for my maths lecture ytd.....so i borrowed from my lecturer.....after an hour plus we leave the cc....jl told me there a chio bu a pity shes a " ah lian ".....it seemed quite a number of chinese young chicks were living ard bedok area....hmm....song (= jl wanted to use toilet so i bought him to my hrs....watched chinese show for a while then bid goodbye as he went to meet his friends for mahjong.....recently someone been sending me gd nite msg....thats suppose to be a nice thing but i find something's fishy....how come she didn chat with me once in msn ? worse she deleted my friendster comment which the content is juz asking her condition nth mushy....if i didn rmb wrong she deleted 3 comments from me....previously 2 was a testimony before friendster comment was introduced....my sixth senes is telling me shes trying to exchange those gd nite msg with me....when someone sent me i will send them back one as a sign of coutesy.....coz ppl might mistakened i was acting " cool "....sadly to say nowdays shes the only one sending me those gd nite msgs so in order to send her one back i nd to search from the websites....and nd to pick those with the word " friend " nth mushy as nowdays ppl like to use those gd nite msg to flirt and know more opp sex friends....i used to be one too....which i find it very meaningless now.....i used to woo that particular person i mentioned above but the thought of deleting my friendster comments hurts me....she only left one which got cute pics which took me a long time to search....why ? perharps shes trying to show off that someone is wooing her.....i been wanting to delete it as i thought since she dun appreciate my comment why dun she juz delete all ? but i decided not to.....nvm anyway its juz a comment....let her be.....she only sent me gd nite msgs recently...which buffles me.....perharps shes trying to exchange new gd nite msgs and send to her crush ? nvm anyway i had checked the content carefully before i sent her....nth mushy....seriously i dun pinned any hope on her now.....used to save her photos on friendster....all my password of everything account....game and others are using her name.....nvm this is part of a youngster life....still rmb asking her out during this year valentine day without me saying guess readers out there know the outcome isnt ? coincidently i saw her in the train.....she said she was feeling tired so she rejected me but when i saw her she seemed energectic ( = so readers out there cant blame me for being suspicious that she was trying to exchange gd nite msg with me isnt ? seriously i felt like....a fool...during my birthday she gave me a present.....a t shirt with a birthday card....love ( her name ) in the end she said her friend wrote that card not her....wad is that suppose to mean ? if she dun wan me to misunderstand she could juz change a card or she could jus wrote herself....asking her friend to write ? sincerity ? i dun feel any.....she gave me a present becoz i gave her one during her last year birthday....the price of the present is not important...wads important is the sincerity....i tried to meet her for lunch last time....failed....lunch during daylight....when i ask her if can meet during night to pass me the present she said she cant go out at nite....but i rmb she told me she met a classmate of her for movie last time at night....somemore that guy ask her to be her gf after that movie....as if i will raped her the moment after meeting lunch at DAYLIGHT afternoon or meet her during EVENING AT TM where few hundreds of ppl shopping around everyday.....so now i juz send her plain gd nite msgs.....so i hope she will generally feel my msg bored and to plain for her to send to bla bla bla so she wun send me anymore....i still got her pics in my com....last time i even transfer into my hp.....i deleted from my hp....anyway her o lvl is coming i hope she will do well....gd luck ex-classmate....
jl advised me to exercise often...yea i will my friend....hope to get a running shoe asap from my work pay during exam break....hope to get rid of my panda eye asap sigh.....been troubled since the day i born.....jl told me it linked with my liver....hope everything is ok then....i dun commited any bad deed guess god wun take away my life so fast isnt ? same as usual talk is cheap and the actions starts after my exam.....chiong work....$$$$$ ( =

2007-08-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

taken my machtech lab test today.....was stuck in one part...cant continue.....but i wun worried much as machtech is an easy subject to pass....i did well for my other practical and class assignment....although i handed up late frequently.....though i am not worried for my machtech lab test i was feeling down the whole day.....becoz i dun have satisfaction chinese is man zhu gan...so all i left now is 3 exam papers which is 2 weeks later....hope to find a gd part time job to spend my 2 mths exam break....coz i nd to buy quite a number of things....a spectacle....a laptop...a printer cum scanner and a gd speaker for my laptop....coz i will be starting my 3-D modelling elective nxt semester...perharps i need a laptop for my future projects.....

2007-08-15T22:17:00.000+08:00

today handed up mct project....took pauto lab test....looks like i need to take sup paper for pauto...i fluant my lab test today....moreover i failed my term test and both class quizs...althought i did badly for previous semesters i didn take any sup.....looks like i nd a miracle to pass my pauto.....cant understand....i attended lecture and labs yet i still cant understand.....fortunately i did well for my mct project interview....although i did little for my project my grp members did the most.....tml i will be taking my machtech lab test....hope everything can go smoothly tml....after tml all i left is the three exam papers maths pod and mct....well i did quite well for my class quizs for maths and pod unlike previous semesters....i did well for term test too....juz pauto i worried.....recently something bothers me...is it true that they isnt any gd ppl and bad ppl exist in this world ? only the strong and the weak ? no matter how well u treated them the moment u are not gd in something out u go....i want to be a strong...who helps the weak....gd guy ? no becoz i believe in karma....i am afraid of karma...i do wadever my conscience say yes....no matter how ppl judge whether its a gd thing or a bad thing to do....all the best to the Reds for the champions league qualifying rounds later....and also this saturday against chelsea.... i believe u all The Reds will defeat the blue....u will never walk alone

2007-08-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

friday is pod quiz....been mugging this few days....hope i can achieve better gpa than last sem....nxt week i got 2 lab test....which worried me most....progauto really kills me.....been attending lesson yet still cant understand....my weakest subject this year....been troubled with toothache recently....my intelligent tooth is growing....hope to save enough $$$ to go for a dental check up....not sure if i shld put " ya tao " but i dun depend on my looks for my future isnt ? so wad if i look nicer and attract gers whom relationship wun lasted ? heard from meiting she got a job as a sony eriksson promoter...10 bucks per hour and wads more i can use 3 of their hp for free if its spoit company gave u a new set....waiting for her good news then....dunno which movie to watch on friday...the funny simpson the action packed flashpoint or the romantic jay zhou movie the secret that cant be spoken....up to u all guys....looking forward to finish my exam and find a job which enables me to learn skills and and earn acceptable paid....really looking forward to it...

2007-07-22T01:23:00.000+08:00

today went to east coast park for my class baberque...went to buy items with alwyn kenneth and lam at my working place parkway cold storage....as we shop lam's stingy attitude pissed me the whole day....i wonder how he can find himself a gf nxt time and hes very fortunately to have alwyn as hes friend whos patient towards him even alwyn showed his displesure sometimes on him....after finishing purchasing our items we took a cab and headed towards east coast park....when we reached there only to realise amara was at the other side which was quite a distance from us.....so we had no choice but to walk to meet her....it took us quite sometime to settle down....as we are short of some kind of leadership most of us dunno wad to do....plus confusion occured as to what to do nxt....our CP was waiting at the place where we alighted when we took a cab..she wanted someone to help her by going there to take her heavy stuff.....fortunately nelson kk and daryl went pass her....n they bought her stuff to us.....she had to went home as her car is illigel parking....quite disappointed that many of our classmates didn wanted to come....keneeth fell down while riding a bike and fraturated his elbow....wishes him recover soon....he and his gf went home after that as he need to consult a doctor.....i feel down too while riding a bike but juz a few scrathes.....compare to kenneth im counted lucky....i told my manager i wanted to stop for one mth to study....actually was working another job which jl intro me but that job of his cant confirm spaces for every weekends so i didn resign cold storage straightly....but after my exam i will quit cold storage as i had another job working at a shop selling bags at taka...looking forward to the day where i can exp a better and new working environment.....tml nd to meet liting for teaching me java.....hope to learn more from her....

2007-07-07T00:37:00.000+08:00

finallly after much waiting and anticipation liverpool fc secure a major signing FERNANDO TORRES !!!! hes young and good many world class coaches managers and players rated him highly....and also hes dashing....i aws thinking of buying liverpool fc new away jersy with torres name printed on it but i realise my cash is a tight recently so i decided to buy liverpool next season new home jersy ( if the design is quite diff compare to this season the one i bought ) with torres name printed on it...now liverpool nxt target is two winger quaresma and mancini were the players linked to lfc recently....recently having problem doing my mechtech...i felt myself useless.....it seemed very easy as my classmates were able to complete in a short time n yet i dun have any idea how to design...worse the teacher in charge is mr chia....the teacher i respected most in the whole temasek poly.....he taught me engdraw during sem 1.1....however i was playful n even slept during his class.....in the end i ended up lagging behind of my class....wad makes me disappointed is it took me one year to realise i had wasted one year iin poly....isnt so hard to pay attention in class ? isnt so hard to juz take up a piece of paper and a pen to write down notes given by lectures ? isnt so hard to attend lectures and instead be a blind follower ? i got 3-D modelling for my elective subject....if only i was able to fulfil wad i writen above....mr chia teaches aerospace subjects....i blew it....i really wish to learn from him....he gave me confidence and treat me like a friend of his....he even called me his favourite student.....sounds amusing but somehow i felt a kind of warmth inside my heart....now i disappointed him again....i had to finish before nxt thursday....i had to....i really nd junlin and rich help again....i was born to be a slow learner....but i am not afraid of challenges.....more challenges means more opportunities to strengthen and widen my knowledge...i juz watch a show wu sian fu huo...the morale of the movie is very meaningful....treasure the ppl ard u....once u misses it there wun be a 2nd chance to get them back....and also greed will consume one's mind and led him to betray his principle and doom....i watched this show before.....this time i felt those morales that that movie is expressing were craved inside my heart....life's short.....recently one of my jap group member intro me her job selling bags at town area i called them they asked me to look for them before exam break so they can train me....gotta change cold storage....it seemed i had mentioned abt changing cold storage job umpteen times in my blog but i nv show actions to change only talks....wads important now is actions.....actions to fulfil my dream.....actions to reaches my goal....

2007-06-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

sch will re-open this coming week.....there will be a couple of projects to do....juz hope my group members and i will finish them asap....been asking for new part time jobs but to no vain...really wanted to quit cold storage asap....been playing football manager recently...some sort of addicted....to my surprise my performance is great currently qualified for ucl quarter final F.A cup 6th round 5th at epl...signed ronaldo my favorite player and performed well...also bale from southampton a young promising L B....but my finance were making losses which i dun even know why....perharps i nd to sell some players nxt season players like kewell fowler bellamy finan kuyt....aim to brn in klose alves and hope to receive transfer fund for nxt season....this fm 07 is my first fm...shld have bought it last time....anyway my dear sammie bday is coming soon oh rite plan to buy a simple cake as he said he dun have a bday cake for a long long time....shld update my blog more often i seemed to have quite a number of things to write down but i forgotten....

2007-06-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

today had to wake up very early in the morning as i nd to work....nd to reach be 8am which i always arrive late....plus i slept ard 2 plus as i celebrated my bday with sammie and cal....really tired of working at cold storage tml gonna call jason working place and ask if they nd any part timers and hope i can successfully work there...tml still nd to work....but if i choose to resign i will be jobless....i nd to pay for my bills....and also had some $$$$ in bank in case i nd to purchase my targeted item....aftet working till abt 4 plus went home prepare then meet rich and jun lin at tm for dinner at seoul garden.....when we reached there then realise they dun accept nets only nets with mastercard function....so jun lin had to pay for me first....all of us enjoyed the dinner as we kept cooking food for each other....as we were eating we saw jeff and his gf queuing for their turn as they planning to have their dinner at seoul garden too....we greeted towards each other then he and his gf went to their table....after eating for almost 2 hour my tummy is float like a pooh bear....when i went to the washroom i cant barely walk straight....jun lin had a huge appetite he ate the most...impressive phew.....when we almost finish eating rich asked us wad we going to do nxt as his friend whom juz breaked with his gf and wanted rich to accompany him was waiting for him at tm....so i asked if they wanna watch shreck 3 and they agreed....after we left jeff sent me a msg wishing me a happy bday and im really appreciated that....we watched the 9:40 show...the show lasted abt one and a half hour plus.....overall it was not as nice as the previous 2 movies.....rich friend gave me a bag of time out chocolate well many thx to him.....after finished watching the show we went seperately to take our buses home....when i reached home i open the present richmond and jun lin gave me its a yellow and green belt with a 9 WOW that reminds me of RONALDO !!!! coz jun lin knows i like ronaldo.....thank u jun lin and rich....overall i would like to thank sam cal jun lin and rich for spending ur time to celebrate with me.....and also to those who sent their wishes to me...thank u everyone

2007-06-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

today is my birthday....celebrated with cal and sammie at swensen at suntec city....cal gave me a nike soccer ball and sammie gave me a bracer...i am very happy and a million thx to ur guys for ur wishes...and also thx to those friends who wished me i appreciated that....after having our dinner we went to town to meet sammie's warcraft clan members....heard one of them whos name peter has mental disorder but may god bless him...the clan leader is a joker who crack lame jokes really an assclown even sammie agree with me lol no offence.....after introducing each other i suddenly had a stomachache....sam went with his clan member first while cal waits for me....after finishing my " business " cal and i went to wisma atra for a drink at starbuck...sammie then called me and he said he coming to join us....after finishing our drink we went home and thus end our day....when i reached home my parents bought a birthday cake i really appreciated that....well my birthday wishes is simple to do well for my sch work and also my parents with a healthy body...and also lastly hope kaili will do well for her A lvl this year.....

2007-06-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

finally got my blogskin...like it very much....many thx to the creator and also my friends liting and michelle who helped me by telling me how to change it....term test on nxt week....been mugging this few days....theres one progauto project nd to come out with an idea during term break....some of my group members will be working during term break....seemed quite difficult to meet up....im desperately looking for a new job coz im really tired of working at cold storage....hope to find a job with higher pay....keen to work in shops selling clothes.....hope to get the job jason works currently gap at center point....shld i buy a psp or upgrade my com with a new dvd writer speaker keyboard mouse higher ram or shld i rather juz save up for rainning day ? later is brazil vs england at the new wembely stadium hope brazil will win but if gerrard or carragher or crouch score i will be delighted coz they are the Reds....( +

series of unfortunate....

2007-05-17T23:34:00.001+08:00

today is a very unlucky day for me....first early in the morning while in the bus on my way to sch i realised i forgot to brn my goggle for my machtech....fortunately the teacher allowed me to borrow a pair of goggle...then while my last lesson is abt to end samuel smsed me that he wun going ac with me....in the end i went ac alone and felt like an alien...today those leaders from ac wanted us to run the resevoir one round which is abt 5 km...stamina is not very gd...n lack of training made me suffer....nd to train my stamina....when i was juz started to run my shoe sole came out....that shoe cost me 110 and only lasted for 2 years....felt embarrased...threw it near and stood and collected it when i completed my running....when finally completed one round one of the leader punished us for not running as a group but actually hes punishing those who ran slowly than him....did 50 plus push-ups.....a lot of ppl were complaining......had to do as i dun wish to quit halfway again...no matter how tough is it i will continue....some ppl left after being " punished ".....but this is juz the beginning the next thing they asked us to do is push-ups jumping jets crunch up and a move they called superman which nd one to lie on the floor with the chest on the floor and raise ur legs up without bending ur knee and swing ur arms towards behind and front continuosly.....on the way i kept hiding my shoe sole and collected it when no one is ard....my shorts were dirted by the mud when doing the push ups punishment.....reached home abt ten plus....had a bath....guess cant do my revision....today is really a day of series of unfortunate....hope tml is a better day for me....

the yellow shirt

2007-05-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

met calgary's friends and played soccer plus few of my classmates...needs to play more often...i swear i will never disgrace the yellow shirt again....as for my sch work so far so good....mct a bit confuse...same as usual.....need to practice doing maths and pod...quite a boring day for me....went to eat alone after jap tutorial whiel waiting for jap lecture to begin....went to read comic after eating then realise someone borrowed the series i haven read...so had to read the further series....same as usual...cold replys recevied by u...

my first ever soccer game with friends

2007-05-13T10:46:00.000+08:00

supposed to update ytd but theres something wrong with this website.....ytd morning went to play soccer with jun ling and his friends at serangoon....its a great experience....its quite hard for me to run as my boots is indoor type so its very slippery....still nd to learn to control the ball....missed 4 or 5 chances to score but scored one though....hope to perform better this wed as cal and his friends are playing street soccer....planning to call jun ling zaidi raimi and jian wei...after soccer went home and went to town with cal coz i nd to buy a white shirt and cal is planning to buy a bag....but cal was quite unhappy coz i made him waited for my reply for 2 hrs....saw a cesar at bedok bus while travlling to tenah merah station....his bald as hes serving the police force now....all the best to him....hope he can help me get a job at k box at town....i bought one shirt from fresh imp...after walking for hours finally reached home...was tired cant revise my sch work....

spiderman 3

2007-05-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

monday is always a tiring day...nd to report school at 8am....wake up at 6.....MCT got a project to do....quite worried as my computer knowledge is low...but i believe determination is all it takes....after school went to vivo and watched spiderman 3 with calgary and yan sheng.....it was a great movie...it shows how spiderman battle his temptation.....evil is cool but cool is not all it matters and it tends to corrupt ur mind...its the love u have with ur family...ur friends.....ur loved ones.....that matters......felt tired cant accompany calgary to plaza singapura and decided to go home....

MAN UTD OUT !!!!!

2007-05-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

double happiness for me for the past 2 days first the Reds are on their way to Athens then this morning our biggest rival MAN UTD LOST TO MILAN YEA !!!! TREBLE IS GONE FREGIE !!! however i do wishes them all the best for their EPL campaign and the FA cup...really looking for the arrival of a lethal striker at anfield nxt season coz the current striker is not gd enough....carlos teves samuel eto are hot favourites but i really hope mr benetiez will buy a brazilian striker probably luis fabiano or even robinho wooooo !!!! or maybe his scout will find a young talented brazilian striker at brazil and bred out the nxt RONALDO !!!!......reached home 9 plus...coz of AC activitiy....quite interesting at the first day...know a few new friends.....now im sleepy tml is maths bonus quiz...sigh guess i can only juz manage a margin pass....com is getting worse...nd to ask for sammie help.....nd to earn and save $$$$$ now....

first post...

2007-05-02T20:07:00.000+08:00

this is my first posting on this new blog and i already have something good to share and that is...LIVERPOOL ARE GOING TO ATHENS !!!!! WOOT !!!! we beaten chelsea through PK and if anyone who said liverpool are juz won by luck then all i can say is u are a loser coz liverpool are dominating the whole match and we have a goal which ruled offside thus once again it shows heaven is fair or else i would have killed that linesman ! this is the 2nd week of this semester...so far so good for me....juz a bit confuse abt principle of dynamic....i told myself that i gonna work hard this semester....i did badly for the previous semester fortunately i passed all my subjects....cal told me to quit my job but i need to earn some $$$$ monthly to pay for my hp bills and scv bills.....and those branded shirt jeans hp shoes bag and my liverpool jersy were bought using my pay....if not due to my family income my parents wun be able to afford them....but for me i had to face the fate as i told cal ytd while finished watching wild hogs and also treating working as a way to gain some exp for my future career...so all i nd is sufficient rest and a well-planned timetable...juz came back for japanese lecture...all i nd to do now is to have a bath and taking my dinner and start revising....